Artist:Saliva
Title: Always

Hear... a voice say "Don't be so blind"...
it's telling me all these things...
that you would probably hide...
am I... your one and only desire...
am I the reason you breath...
or am I the reason you cry...

Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
this life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
and now I'm done with you...

I feel... like you don't want me around...
I guess I'll pack all my things...
I guess I'll see you around...
Inside... it bottles up until now...
as I walk out your door...
all I hear is the sound...

Always... always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
this life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
and now I'm done with you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...

I left my head around your heart...
Why would you tear my world apart...

Always... always... always... always...

I see... the blood all over your hands...
does it make you feel... more like a man...
was it all... just a part of your plan...
this pistol's shakin' in my hands...
and all I hear is the sound...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I breathe you...
I taste you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
this life of solitude...
I guess that I'm out the door...
and now I'm done with you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...

I love you...
I hate you...
I can't live without you...
I just can't take anymore...
this life of solitude...
I pick myself off the floor...
and now I'm done with you...
Always...
Always...
Always...

-Caren
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BW - Me 36
WH - 35
D-Day: Sometime in August 04
1 DD together (2 DD's of my own)
I Moved Out: September 9, 04
Intermittantly Plan A-ing and Flipping Out
Daily contact with WH
Plan B Coming After Holidays

Artist:Puddle of Mudd
Title:Blurry

Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is
So messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world
Surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that
I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face

Everyone is changing
There's no-one left
That's real
To make up
Your own ending
And let me know
Just how you feel
'Cause I am lost
Without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world
Surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that
I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me

Oh
Nobody told me
What you thought
Nobody told me
What to say
Everyone showed you
Where to turn
Told you
Where to runaway
Nobody told you
Where to hide
Nobody told you
What to say
Everyone showed you
Where to turn
Showed you
Where to runaway

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me

This pain you gave to me

You take it all
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave
This pain you gave

Artist: Sugarcult
Album: Palm Trees And Power Lines
Title: Memory



This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
I'll tear us apart.
Cannot be your enemy.
Losing half a year.
Waiting for you here
I'd be your anything.

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
Tearing out my heart.
I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
(I'd be your memory)
Feelings disappear.
Can I be your memory?

So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.

This may never start.
We could fall apart
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?

Troy by Sinead O'Connor

I remember it
Dublin in a rainstorm
sitting in the long grass in summer
keeping warm
I remember it
every restless night
we were so young then we thought that everything we could possibly do was right
every move stolen from our very eyes
I wonder where you went to
and tell me
when did the light die?
you will rise
you'll return
phoenix from the flame
and we will learn and we will rise
you'll return
being what you are
there is no other Troy
for you to burn
and I never meant to hurt you
I swear I didn't mean those things I said
I never meant to do that to you
next time I'll keep my hands to myself instead
oh, and I sure love you
what do you want to do?
does she need you like I do?
do you love her?
is she good for you?
does she hold you like I do?
do you want me?
should I leave?
I know you're always telling me that you love me
but just sometimes I wonder if I should believe
oh, I love you
God, I love you
I'd kill a dragon for you
and die
but I will rise and I will return
the phoenix from the flame
I have learned
I will rise
and you'll see me return
being what I am
there is no other Troy
for me to burn

and you should have left the light on
you should have left the light on
then I wouldn't have tried
you'd never have known
and I wouldn't have pulled you tighter
no, I wouldn't have pulled you close
I wouldn't have screamed
"no I can't let you go"
if the door wasn't closed
no, I wouldn't have pulled you to me
no, wouldn't have kissed your face
you wouldn't have begged me to hold you if we hadn't been
there in the first place
but I know you wanted me to be there
every look that you threw told me so
but you should have left the light on
you should have left the light on
wouldn't have made it burn away
but you're still spitting fire
make no difference what you say
you're still a liar
you're still a liar
you're still a liar


Replace he for she and him for her in my case...


One of my favorite stanzas from Pink Floyd's "Yet Another Movie"

A man in black on a snow white horse....
A pointless life has run its course...
Red rimmed eyes, the tears still run...
As he fades into the setting sun.


Yeah, I know, kinda depressing...but that is where I am right now.

TM

Found something I wrote as a young adult some 25 years ago:

Hidden secrets shadow eyes
Unlearned truths are well disguised
In the truth there lies the doubt
The light within is gone without

Crying eyes are laughing still
Tears that won't and smiles that will
Fractured dreams with scars that heal
Ever Stronger, Unrevealed

Passion plays upon the heart
Drawn together, torn apart
Whispered wishes ride the wind
Memories fade, but never end

Present pleasures nonexistant
Future visions unresistant
Faded memories of the past
Disconnected, end at last

Seeking out the mind's reflections
Escaping unexpressed rejections
Whispering to the unseen faces
Unaware the time is wasted

Labored breath, uneven still
Sadness reigns with threats to kill
Unseen futures govern thoughts
To the wind, we cast our lots

Sep 78
Mary Cofer

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