<small>[ December 23, 2004, 11:29 AM: Message edited by: Dalton Dad ]</small>

Have you tried going to a church? Go to a service, listen to the music and let the beauty and peace surround you.

Get some exercise! It's 3 degrees where I live but you could take a walk. Go to the mall and do laps. Go to a recreation center and swim. Sit in the hot tub or sauna.

Take a long shower. Go for a massage. Go out for a nice meal.

Volunteer for something. The food bank or toy drive can always use somebody. Go to a charity gift wrap booth and volunteer your services. It would be so busy today, they'd certainly need help. Get outside of your cocoon and be involved with something else.

(((((((((hug))))))))))))

Dalton Dad, I'm sorry you are feeling like this.

I know how you feel. When I left, I chose to move to a place where I knew only a couple of people. I had NO friends here, etc. I had thought it was a good idea at first--you know, fresh start and all, but it made it very difficult for me.

HC has a good idea about church, even if you are not religious. I know that older Catholic churches are usually quite beautiful. And there will be a midnight mass on Friday which is just..I dunno..midnight mass is beautiful whether you are a believer or not.

Is there an aquarium near where you live? Sometimes there's nothing quite like seeing huge fishies swimming around in cool deep water.

If you can do something repetitive and mindless (like walking), it may help to calm you and take the edge off of things.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by Dalton Dad:
<strong>I don't dare goto the hospital again. They won't let me out. I don't know any safe places to go.

Safe for me...from me....</strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">DD,

Go to the hospital now. Though you don't feel so now, it is the safest place you could be. I have a sister who is bipolar and when she was at the worst of her depression during one cycle she refused to go and we almost lost her. Today she is happy, stable, and loving her life! Please do not ignore your symptoms or try to battle them on your own. You need help. The hospital is the place to go. Don't try to do this on your own. You are too precious to lose. Believe me on this.

~ Snow

sorry

<small>[ December 23, 2004, 11:30 AM: Message edited by: Dalton Dad ]</small>

Dalton Dad,

This is my first post here in over two years. I have been lurking for a while, and your post made me track down my login information so I could post to you.

As you can see by my extra long .sig, I went through a terribly rough time two years ago. I imagined ways to kill myself. I couldn't see the future. I thought I would never be happy again. I just wanted the horrible pain to go away.

Let me tell you something: The pain *DOES* go away. I guarantee you that! I have had some very happy times since, and some sad ones, but I had those times.

Look at a couple other posters here who have gone thought this, Spacecase and 2Long were both here when I was, and they are survivors. You can read it in their posts. They are much stronger and wiser now, as am I. You *will* be there too. It is inevitable. Just hang in there for now, and know that someone else out there has been where you are, and you will be in a much better place someday too.

My D was final 4/04. The pain is all gone. You will get through this too.

Tiger

Dalton D, what's up with you? All I'm seeing is edited posts from you? Are you having suicidal thoughts again? If you are formulating a plan go to the hospital now. If nothing else think about your children and put them above your state of mind right now. Please post what is going on with you. cv

DD,

Sorry, for what? Causing concern among us? Well, tough. We care about you and want to see you get through this and be happy again.

Please post and let us know you're OK. CV is right. Think of your kids now, and how bad things will be for them if you let your thoughts take over.

DON'T DO THIS. GET HELP. NOW.

~ Snow

DO YOU WANT YOUR CHILDREN TO BE F'D UP FOR LIFE? my grandfathers father hung himself in the basement on xmas eve. b4 he did it he called his whole family downstairs so they could see it. my mother's whole side of the family has been screwed up ever since. not to mention you will not pass those purly gates. you will never see your loved ones again. usually those who speak out about suicide are looking for attention. you can get attention in different ways. i know, i tried when i was younger and absolutely never spoke of it. i also had a boyfriend who's father was trying for sympathy too and shot himself in the shoulder knowing he wouldn't die.....well guess what the bullet bounced off another bone and hit his heart. my boyfriend was traumatized for life. is that how you want your children to live life? screwed up? all you need to do is ask for help and many will do it..

Places to go for help?

Within yourself, picking up shattered, broken pieces of LOVE FOR YOURSELF, and making a nice mozaic of them...

Call this number 1-800-784-2433 ... .

If you live in SFBayArea ... we could meet up. I have "Hate Love" to hang around with this holiday season.

-rh-