After all the drama Christams brought, I was glad that I had an appt. today. I broke down of course, telling all the events of the past 4 days (since my last appt.) and then it was my counselors turn to tell me the *truth*. The truth is, that my husband is in love with someone else regardless if he wears a ring or not. Regardless if he takes me out to the movies, or has sex with me or doesn't call her for a few days. The bottom line is I am the least important thing to him as of this moment and whether or not I want to believe him, it is the truth. I have to start taking care of myself. Maybe he will wake up and realize what he has or maybe he wont. But I am miserable and I am losing a ton of weight and very unhappy. I have two young kids who deserve the best mom I can be and I've even let hubby take that from me.

I feel as tho my marriage is just another thing to add to the list of things I've failed at in my life. That makes it even harder to *give up* or appear to do so.

I read Plan A, but there is no way he is going to stop talking to her. I've poured out my heart in words, poems, gifts, cards, emails, text messages, even an extremely high cell bill and the threat that it will be turned off wont stop him.

I love him, the guy I used to know at least. And that was only before 10/29/04.

{{{{{{{{{{mom,}}}}}}}}}}

Sorry to hear you are in so much pain. I can't offer advice as I too have failed at marriage. Good luck to you.

MIF

Thanks for the hug <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

You cn't fail at marriage alone. It sounds like you've done your part to make it work. You can't control anybody's actions except your own. If WH decides he doesn't want your marriage, it wasn't your failure.

My WH is always trying to put the blame on me too. Stay stong! ((((hug))))