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Happy New Year, everyone! I don’t know about you, but I am looking forward to having a whole new year—fresh and clean, with a whole new start. I have reflected upon 2004, and for me as an individual, it was not a bad year: I left a job that I tolerated and started a job that I LOVE—I started doing my life’s calling (yay!!)—I got my finances settled—I got my kids pretty settled—I lost my gramma dog—and I think I got a long way toward my own personal healing and personal responsibility. So, after a year that was “not too bad” I’m looking forward to entering a new year so that I can start my first GREAT year since the whole affair and divorce!!

The reason I’m writing today is that I went to see the movie “What the Bleep Do We Know?” and it opened my eyes to something. I had decided that this year the two areas of my life that I was going to concentrate on were #1) getting more healthy and fit, and #2) my love life (or lack thereof). So toward the end of the year, I began doing yoga and tai chi for #1, and doing more thinking about the type of partner I want in my life, praying about bringing that person into my life, etc. for #2. I also began stuff like virtually writing down some of the traits and characteristics that I’d like too!! Anyway, at this movie today, they were discussing how love is a biochemical reaction—anticipation of the chemicals being released that we associate with the emotion “love”. This seems to coincide with both the “meeting emotional needs” theory and the “Why We Love” theory of biochemistry.

Add to the soup of my thoughts, something that a male friend of mine said the other day. This fella is actually a pretty good friend with whom I have been friends for about two years; he’s kind and gentlemanly despite the fact that he’s more than 6ft. tall and probably about 275 lbs. of muscular football type. He’s HUGE! Anyway, this guy met my exH a couple of times and he calls the ex “wolfa$$” because he says that the ex acts like an a$$. Hmmmm…at first I was a little put off by the name-calling, but it got me thinking. Shortly after that convo, I had a chance to go out with the male friend and the next day I had to meet with the ex. Lo and behold, my friend was RIGHT and I hadn’t really noticed! I mean…I knew it in my head but never SAW it. The whole time I was with my friend, he was interested, considerate, joking, pleasant, caring, trustworthy, friendly and memorable! My ex, on the other hand, was self-centered, teased the waitress, crude, unpleasant, and just sort of nasty. I remember thinking, at the end of the meeting, as if he never even noticed ME or what I thought or felt—whereas the male friend not only noticed, but seemed interested.

SOOOOOOOoooooooooo…stirring the proverbial soup, what I began to wonder/discover is that I think part of my “anticipation of the chemicals being released that we associate with the emotion love” may have two components that I don’t want: 1) love=being hurt, and 2) love=a guy who acts crude. (That’s the very simplistic way of stating it, but I hope you understand what I’m saying.) Generally, when I encounter a guy on the “dating scene” who is like my FRIEND, I tend to feel a little “bored” or like there’s something missing; but when I meet a guy who really lights my fire, he tends to be not the kind of guy I really want! Remember the guy who came to my house and wanted sex on the second date?? So, I think I have made a MAJOR discovery. In the same way that living in a peaceful home felt sort of “boring” at first (because I was used to the crisis and drama of abuse), dating a guy who is actually GOOD FOR ME may not be what my brain is anticipating as the chemicals associated with the emotion love!! The times I have been with someone that I would call “love” have either ended in sexual abuse (dad) or 13 affairs (exH)—so when I actually find someone who is good for me, it should feel QUITE DIFFERENT!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

This is going to be quite a different new year.


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I truely like your message. It gives me something to think about. That is what I should be saying and thinking myself. I want someone that I can have fun with, laugh, cry, talk and make love,take walks with and what ever we want to do,and not worry about what other people think. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />


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