Sorry if this gets long-

This past October I noticed my H very withdrawn. So one night I tried to please him orally. During and after I got no response (in the past he says something like thank you or things progress further- reciprocation). Well about a week later I worte him a letter telling him how I'm sorry I haven't met his needs and hoping it's not too late. The letter was brushed off with him saying nothing's wrong. A month later I had confronted him about a couple of lies in which the truth finally came out. Our topics then turned to EN's. Our conversation was very calm. He had mentioned that I need to work on my appearance (I am 35 lbs overweight since the birth of our D last June). I mentioned again that night I tried to give him SF and he replied that I don't do it for him anymore. Since November we have been intimate once. I am having a very difficult time initiating anything becasue that phrase keeps ringing in my ears. I am curently on a diet and working out to improve my appearance to meet his need for an attractive spouse (but mainly so I can feel better about myself altogether). I know this porbably doesn't belong on this board because I have yet to confirm any infidelity. DO I just suck it up and try initiating again? (oops, no pun intended)


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