My wh came home on New Years eve to give the kids Christmas. We talked and cryed and he was truly sorry -he didn't want to lie to me anymore. He wants us to be friends no matter if we R or not-- and even go to MC if I want to.

He came back 3 days later to clean up the mess he made in our yard because the county gave us a citation. He has been honest answering almost all of my questions. He said the past 6 months have been hell for him -- he hated how much he hurt me -- I was the nicest sweetest person he knew, I was beautiful and I did not deserve the pain he gave me. He then became very upset about the things I did to him in the past month --Temp Protective Order. He cryed when it was time for him to leave and said he didn't want to go. I asked him to stay.

He *****ed about the OW --she is a spoiled brat, she is a slob, she can't cook. He could not answer why they are together -- and he would not end contact. The truth is I didn't push it either --I don't know what I want.

Long story short --I left him in my house this morning thinking and planning emotionally he would leave. Well he did but his truck is still here -- he called her from my phone in the house and I can only assume that she picked him up.

I am down about this -- at the same time I know thier relationship is doomed (Ithink) -- do I even want this man back?

<small>[ January 06, 2005, 06:59 PM: Message edited by: tdr ]</small>

I just packed up all of his clothes. If he thinks honesty is going to let him eat cake in my face -- he can go think about it in his gutted out house near the OW. Funny his cell phone is turned off -- same thing he did to her when he was shacked up here for 3 days.

And what are you going to do with his clothes? How long have you been in Plan A?

Ahhh yes, the old turning off the cell phone gig....I can feel ya there, my WH does the EXACT same thing. He turns his cell phone off when he's here.....and weirdly, his phone gets the crappiest reception of all time, because a few times a week when I or my daughter call him.....the reception is so bad, the phone doesn't even ring......damn technology...LOL!

Just wanted to tell you I know where you're coming from.

-Caren