I guess this is long overdue, but I have had enough.
The kicker was that he said he would be here to see daughter today. I had to practically beg him as he said it had only been a week or so since he saw her...and she was the one who asked for him, which was rare..she has been rejcted by him so many times.
But he didn't come. I went to pick him up , and there was the ow's truck, at my house. I was not happy.
I had a few words with him and left.
I expected him to call or show up but he didn't.
I have just spoken to him. I told him that there is no excuse for not calling, and that his daughter deserves better than that.
He said he thought it was not a good time to come as I was upset seeing ow at the house.
I agree. In fact I don't think there is any good time to see him while he is putting time with her above caring for his child and her feelings.
Moreover, I realise that I can't force him to want to be with us. He knows how I feel. I have done my utmost to love him. If he chooses not to be with us, it is his choice. It is also his loss.
No more invitations. No more sex. No more calling and begging him to make time to see his daughter.
From where I sit it looks as though he spent the weekend getting high with ow, and was busy doing whatever with her when I got there.
When he calls I will be busy.
If daughter wants to see him she has his number.But if I were him I wouldn't hold my breath waiting for her to call.
He has lost us, and if he wants us back he will have to fight for us.
The cup of trembling has passed from my hands into his (and into ow's).
This is love.
