I thought I would keep an update on where I stand now that I have officailly entered Plan B. Thanks to Graycloud for the inspiration....

After meeting with my WW last night for over three hours, I left the PBL in her car with a single rose. I called her once I returned home to tell her to look in her car. I was originally going to just let her find it, but I was worried when the OM came over, that he might find it first and trash it. I was nice to her on the phone, finished with a ILY, and hung up.

I thought this was going to be a breeze. I thought wrong. Even though my heart is shut down right now, the concept of me not being able to pick up the phone and contact her at will grates on me. Not that I have anything really to say to her today...just that I can not, must not contact her for anything. I guess we always do want what we can't have, even when the restriction is self-imposed.

I went to my IC today, he is not so sure about cutting all contact, but understands the resoning behind it. He was just hoping I could get her talking about her feelings more and more, util maybe I would get her to reveal some pent-up hurt that I never knew she even held against me.

Maybe once/if we enter MC in the rcovery stage....


TM

<small>[ February 07, 2005, 05:09 PM: Message edited by: TravellinMan ]</small>