Last night was a really bad night for me. WH, DD and I drove into town to see DS at the State Tournament that's happening this weekend. Things have happened, like a major expenditure by WH and WH saying he wants out of our marriage, that I'm not happy about and he won't talk about. That's lead to a lot of tension and a bit of anger and LB-ing. Some of that was me and my boundaries.

I went to bed a bit upset and low. Tense from DS's tournament and unsettled by WH. I work up in the night and had the predawn "everything is crap" mood happening. Just feeling empty. So, as I laid in bed I put a call out to God. I'm not a really religious or churchgoing person but more of a spiritual person. I'm sure a lot of us pray more now than we did before our marriages got strange.

I bypassed my usual prayers. Instead, I just ask God to take my marriage to whereever God felt it should go but to please give me the strength to deal with what would happened. As I lay there, I felt something silvery and warm flow into me. Soon, I was filled up and no longer empty. Warm. Kind of like in the movie Tron where the characters drink from the energy pool and have their depleted energy restored. I have felt full and more functional all day, better able to deal with stuff.

I find it weird. Has this been a religious experience? Have I been granted another source of strength. I'm still trying to get my mind around it.

God will lead, if only we will let him. IMHO, you have just received a message.
Mo'

I have felt the presence of God. I have also felt teh physical relief at praying teh right thing after struggling for ages.

God is with you and loves you whether you feel His presence or not.

Was it a religious experience ? Yes !

You prayed for strength and comfort. You received strength and comfort !

Rejoice in it, and keep praying.

Hi GG- I do believe God was reaching out to you with His comforting presence. It is really amazing when He responds isn't it? I used to think He gets so many requests he takes his time getting around to them but when I was in Plan B He gave me a definite answer right away. I had asked Him late at night if He could give some sign whether I should throw in the towel or still try to save my marriage. ( My H had been sleeping on the couch downstairs for weeks and had been completely cold and distant to me.) I went downstairs at dawn to make some coffee and right then WH got off the couch and came in the kitchen and gave me a big long hug and looked like he was going to cry. I was amazed! Take care- LIM

Yes GG. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Once you get in the practice of turning every thing over to God, life really becomes peaceful.

I still remember the first time I heard these words of God's "seek first the kingdom of heaven, and all else will be given to you". They had such a profound affect on me.

Took me a couple of more years to "get it", but now it is a way of life.

I'm not talking church here GG, more like a personal relationship I have with God now.

It's amazing.

GG-

I definitely think it was God, and I don't think it's weird at all. I've experienced the same thing. I was in so much pain, and I'd been asking God over and over to please take it from me, it was too much...I was screaming it in my car one night, while crying....after I'd left my WH's house....well it didn't happen that night, because I was holding on to my pain with both hands. But since I've learned to actually "let" him have it.......I feel so much better, and when I start feeling bad, all I need do is pray and ask him to take away the negative feelings and he does.

I've actually experienced an all over tingly feeling, and it did fill the "empty" spot that had been in my chest for so long.

I think it's a sign from God GG, I really do. You've released it to him........he has probably been trying to help you all along, but he can't until you let it go.

-Caren

GG, good for you. I too believe this was a religious experience you had.

A very wise spirtual adviser of mine once told me, "remember god's schedule is not always the same as our's". That has always stuck with me and I remind myself of it often. I do believe he has a plan for us all we just have to be wise enough to see it and strong enough to carry it out.

Have a geat day you are in good hands!!

Grapegirl,

I know God has stepped in for me during this:

1. One night when my WW was home, I just could not sleep. I had to get out but where? It was 1:30am and I decided to go to my brothers but I doubted he would be there as he was seeing someone and was probably at her house. If he wasn't home, I had nowhere to go. As I pulled into his driveway, I seen my BROTHER and SISTER sitting at the table. They were still up at 1:30 and for some reason, my sister said she decided to come down for the night. It was like they knew I would be coming for help.

2. One night about 2 months ago, I lay in bed with my little boy and watched him sleep. I prayed siliently to God to carry me. I told him I couldn't do it. After the prayer, my little boy rolled over and said in his sleep, "I love you Dad". He said it 3 more times in the night and he was sleeping. God told my boy to say that.

3. During XMas shopping this year I was totally depressed. It was the first time in 19 years I had shopped w/o my wife. As I was walking through the mall, with literally thousands of people, I look up and there is my sister. She had driven 40 miles to get to the mall and we just happened to be there at the same time.

Yes, God is watching us.

My strength through all of this has come from this verse. I have a plaque with it on my dresser:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart; and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6.

The Lord has been my Leader. He has directed me towards two D-Days, showing me and telling me what I needed to know. It's been divine intervention which has lead me to the information that I needed, when I needed it. I would encourage you to trust your gut and instinct. Listen when He calls. Follow His lead.

Take Care, Sister Goddess!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />