The last weekend in January was the last straw. We got into this huge fight over the fact that my sister had asked me to go out with her and he was mad because I would not have sex with him before I left the house. I went anyway and we had a great time. While we were out I found out that not only did he have this 3 year affair with this woman he worked with he also had been sleeping with the 17 year old that we lived across the street from (who was also pregnant but miscarried)rumor has it that baby was his also. I also found out that at the begining of our marriage when we were struggling his sister set him up with another woman. I was all to much for me to handle so I picked up the phone and called the moving company. The movers came on Feb.4 and I have not slept better in my life. I really have not thought to much about him but I do feel really empty. I get through most of the time okay but once in a while I get that feeling of needing to be held. I am not sure how to fix this and not allow myself to fall into calling him just because I need a body. I really don't long for him I just feel like I need the closeness once in a while. If anyone has any suggestions I would be happy to hear them.

Do you have friends or family to turn to for your lonliness? I know what you mean by not having a body next to you.

Keith

My sister is around but she is involved in her own relationship and therefore does not always have time for me. My mom lives about 80 miles away and I really do not have any friends. I come here because usually everyone is very supportive.

So what can I do to help you?

Keith

starting over in CO:

Sorry for your tough sitch. It sounds like WH's entire family missed out on morality-classes when growing up. Too bad - that presents such heartache.

Most on here know what you mean about missing companionship. I am wondering if you desire at all to try and recover your M? (Realizing that much would have to change for the better!)

As to our mutual need to be social; perhaps it's time to begin making new friends. Do you attend a church? Do you work? Please offer us a bit more info. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

FR