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Must have posted in the wrong place. Last night was my first night posting. Was up all night last night also. I posted two posts under Divorce. I noticed as I read that people kept mentioning GQII. I finally figured out that this is you. So now that I know that... Do I need to repost or just start talking again? Not sure but since it is 6:11am again I know I need to do something. I am leaning on God. I am doing my best to not fall into a pit of selfish pity. I did find Plan A and Plan B today and read other posts and parts of MB that have so much helful information in them.

Last night (or yesterday morning to be more precise) I was crying and talking my H out loud (and no he wasn't here) and I thought "get out the tape player and tape what your saying". Then I thought "why"? The question to myself was interesting. What did I expect to do with that tape? Did I expect to send it to him in the mail now? Do I expect that he would listen to it? NOT. Okay then, I would save it and IF we were ever reconciled I would have him listen to it then. Yes, that's what I would do. Let him hear all the pain he put me through during this time. Oh my Lord! How crazy is that??? If we were to reconcile I sure would not be in a place to even be THINKING about the past??? I would have had to have forgiven him and moved on!!! And why am I thinking all of this NOW??? We aren't even divorced yet!

I wound up sitting on my bed and crying that deep down mourning cry and just reach down for my Bible, picked it up and started reading. By the time I read a few chapters, especially the one that said "Lo, I am with you always" I felt so much better and was able to finally fall asleep.

I know it's going to get easier but <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" /> it hurts.

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Sorry, meant read a few verses...

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I'm trying so hard to stay positive. Didn't do so well today. I know I can only do it a day at a time and just hope I do better tomorrow. At least I'm not a blubbering idiot just now. hehe! (That was a JOKE, I'm not downing myself, HONEST). <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Why is it so hard to remember when he was mean? Or cruel? Sometimes I want to be angry with him. Just seems I can't. I have no energy to waste on anger or bitterness. It's taking all my strength just to get through each 24 hours. And then I think of him and how he was the one who used to hold me when I felt this way for other reasons... uggghhhh! Where is the O-N/O-F-F switch? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

Today I wrote him a letter. Nothing special. Just a letter. "Hi, how are you. How's business. Sincerely,..." and signed my name. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> What was that about? I know he's gonna be wondering the same thing. Well to me it was this, I have to accept that this marriage is over. So I have to stop seeing him as my EVERYTHING. In that letter he was a 'friend' an acquaintance. Maybe... I don't know. Is that why I wrote it? AHHH! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />

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