Brief history...my W had 15 month affair w/her boss (3x a week! Man, I hate doing that mental math.). The A ended when they were caught by a co-worker. And she was fired. And I had to pick her up at work because she lost company vehicle. Yikes. She was forced to admit A then. D-day 1-18-05. Naturally, I was crushed.

She says A was like living two seperate lives...one here, one at work. Can't quite get my arms around that thought, but she's sticking to the story. Did a NC letter several days after discovery, and have not heard from OM (that I'm aware of). So....are my feelings progressing normally? I've listed my concerns next:

1. Initially, the creepy porn movie in head was driving me insane; the images still come and go, but less frequently. Now, I seem to dwell more on the betrayal, the reasons, the mental screwing I got from this.

2. I truly believe my W is committed to our marriage and rebuilding, but in the last week or so I feel like I've come out of a fog and am not so sure about my interest in a future together. I feel like I may not be able to get past the infidelity, the deceit, the lies.

Any input helpful...I seem to have lost my BS handbook!

gunslng44

M - 10/92
A started 9-03
A ended 12-06-04
D-day 1-18-05
3 kids