Oh ****
If this aint final then it will never be final.
The last week or so w and I have been fighting alot. Fighting over crap totally insignificant stuff. Like for instance:
w: "Did you bring the keys"
me: "No did you?"
w: "Why didn´t you?"
me: "I forgot why didn´t u bring them"
w: "You are an idiot"
me: "So are you then"
And then my wife usually takes out the nuclear arms and threatens with divorce and stuff like that. And sometimes I go along and sometimes I don´t.

Well we had been fighting along the last week.
And yesterday she tells me OM#2 is back working at her place. He is probably heavy on medications or something. He lost six members in the tsunami so he quit his other job abroad and they offered him to come back to where my wife is. So now my wife works with OM#1 and on top of that OM#2 is back. Great.
I freaked out about it yesterday when she told me. I even lovebusted quiet a bit. Discussing out loud ways to kill or humilliate OM#2.
Well this morning. My wife complains to me about stuff like why I used her computer and why I left a shirt on the couch etc..I say well I am sorry. She says no not sorry I am tired you know it all adds up. It is like we are competing who can find the most fault in the other.

"I said yeah it all does add upp. OM#1 and OM#2. And your stupid ex-boyfriend. It all adds upp. And now OM#2 is back. Boy does it add up."

After that she ran away. She then calls me a few hours later and tells me that she is done. She will look for a place of her own. And that she surely will not be with me again because she can´t take the blame and recrimination. And that I should not forgive her and that I haven´t forgiven her anyway.
I said yeah it was wrong of me to recriminate her for the past.
Well it didn´t help much.

So I don´t know what to do. I think I should just see what happens. I am tired of this fighting too. I am tired of saying nothing when she threatens with divorce. And if I say something I am the bad guy.

So it breaks my heart because we had really been coming along great the last few months. But this is just a too big mess now. Maybe she just isn´t the right one. Better let her run now before I am too old since it will never work out anyway.