I woke this morning reminding myself that it is my 5th year of marriage. I wanted to leave a rose & a note to let him know how much I love him...then apart of me thought how nice it would be not to have given him a reminder and see how he acts when he awakes & I'm not there for him to roll over and cuddle up against. (I'm at work..getting out early today to spend some time w/ him & our two little girls before he works the second shift).

Guess what I mean is...every year as we have approached our anniversary I think I've been the one to plan the hotel & dinner..or whatever we decided. I don't honestly know if it wasn't for that if he would remember?

I want to see if he will awake and call me and in his loving voice..say something sweet...
how nice it would be to have a truly romantic H let a lone an anniversary.

I know I won't be receiving any special gifts, money is tight and every dime spent is accounted for on both our ends. Wednesday night we decided to get a sitter & went out to our fav. Mexican restaurant for dinner. Then to see a movie. It was nice..but it was kinda the 'same ole' same ole' too...
I want to say it was exciting but it just seemed like we were at the same spot & doing what we usually would be when getting a sitter and running off on a Friday night.

I craved something exciting and different. Especially since 5 years..(been together for 7..) means a lot to me. Not just b/c we are halfway to a decade together but b/c our marriage has been through the rockiest of times this last year and it's (frankly) remarkable that we are still together & have made it through. Not remarkable...a blessing..a gift..a new chance...a BIG PAIN IN THE A**!!!

Okay..now that that is over..wish us a Happy Anniversary pleeese...maybe the more happy wishes and blessings I have..the better our day will be? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> WISHFUL THINKING..

Over all please wish us a happy marriage. At least that means more then one day. That we can see past our differences, realize what it is that we need to change for ourselves and each other..and the ability to do them to be happy w/ one another & in our family.

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