I realize this board is about infidelity in marriages - but I've got some questions about forgiveness. I cheated on my boyfriend of four months (at the time of the other relationship) for about a six week period with someone from work (who was pursuing me). I didn't tell him because I was confused and didn't know what I wanted. I also denied anything was going on when he asked. After six weeks, I made my choice - my boyfriend - and didn't tell him about the other relationship. About two months later, after my boyfriend questioned and questioned me, I told him what happened (not all at once, but a little at a time). I thought a little bit of the truth would be less painful than all of it (but I know that is wrong now). After a very painful breakup, I am now working on my issues - the ones that caused me to cheat, be untruthful, look for validation wherever I can get it, etc. In the meantime, my ex-boyfriend has expressed in interest in getting back together... waiting for me to be healthy. Although, he will date if he wants to during this period. I don't know what I want, but what I worry about is if I do get back together with him - will he really forgive me? could he even if he says he can? or will it always be something he can throw back in my face? and should i risk that? <P>Any thoughts are appreciated...