First..if I click on a post I get the "not a good URL"..the only way I can read posts is to go to "who is on line" and click the post link there? Help!!

Second...I am not married to my XW. I am currently overwhelmed with task of moving back in with her and my boys, into her house, that used to be mine. I am in the process of selling off the compnay I work(ed) for. I just decided not to attend a wedding of a close cousin because it is 500 miles from where we live and in the OM's HOME TOWN! I am bitter about this I admit. I know that no good will come with us attending.

I am divorced from my XW and I know I love her and that she is MY SOUL MATE. However, in the past week I almost met with a girlfriend that I had a year ago. Really close. I still care about this person but not in a way that she wants (she is in love with me).

I know that I should not have any secrets in my relationships. I do, from my XW. She would flip if she knew I even talked to this woman.

There is a part of me that wants to get back at my XW. That wants ME to destroy it. 2 years ago she CRUSHED me, crushed me with making her EA a PA after our divorce. Crushed me with the fact that she had an affair with a "wealthy, older man"....took my 7 months to learn the entire truth. All of this went on because of me attendind an event that took me away for a weekend. Guess what I am doing this weekend?? Going away...and I can't admit to her what is wrong. I'm scared..

Ok..I'm rambling and talking myself out of meeting OGF. I just can't believe how tempted I am now...I never was this tempted when I was married....