I finally am able to post. I cannot believe how fast time goes by. My daughter will be almost 5 months old at the end of this month. She is growing so fast and becomes more adorable each day.

I finally found a part-time job which I started last week. I thought I would be upset leaving my two youngest children but I actually enjoy getting away for the day. My mom drives a hour just to watch them for me.

I am so much stronger than ever before. I do have my depressing moments but I try to think positive and focus on the happier things in my life. I have been taking the kids places and getting out more than before.

I see many wonderful things happening lately. And I do know that no matter what happens I eventually will be ok. I still love my H deeply. But I have learned to detach myself and try not to focus on him so much. I believe he is slowly realizing things. But who knows. All I have control over is ME. And I want to happy again. I want to see my children happy again. And they will be.

Thanks for all the support everyone. It is nice to know even people you don't really know do care.

so are you living apart now? Does he see the kids? What type of a plan are you in with him?

Glad things are going good for you finally.

Detaching is good.

HINY