ok so sat night my H came home we had a great dinner. sunday we went out to a movie and dinner by ourselves had a great time!!!! my h got out like 100.00 cash to buy me a gift for annivesary(we are going away at the end of the month ) he was also going to buy me a mothers day present.. (in the past 9 years b/4 he cheated he NEVER bought me a gift i always ended up buying myself gifts at xmas etc). so when we got back together he brought it upon himself that he wanted to be more giving etc. so far he has done great at every holdiay.

Well two things are really bothering me and not letting me move past it1. LIES LIES LIES how do i deal with lies. heres an example: last night hwen i came home i coudl tell someone had been checking my email (it doesnt matter to me i leave my password in i have nothing to hide) but i asked if he had he denied it for about 10 min finnanly admitting it even though i could care leass. Then he cleared the histroy AGAIN i'm tired of him clearing the history on the computer every after noon. he still claims some program on the computer is doing it!!!!! ( i know this will mostly be alleviated in less then a month when i'm home 24/7 for th esummer)

my second thing is this gift so he got the moeny out. He was going to take the girls to the mall monday but the littlest one was sick then today he said it was rainig and my older d didn twna to go. NOw he wont have a chance until after mothers day. because of his scheadule. so i get no anniveary gift and no mothers day gift. now i am NOT materilistic. even a card woudl be nice. i knwo he has the cash and he said hed give it to me to put back in the bank. but its the thought ath counts he keeps saying he'll go next week. but i feel so hard i want to say i ran all oaver with the girls on sat ( ir eally did for about 7 hours we went to two malls an d another store) to get his [email]present@!!![/email] and he cant even get me a card.


i'm struggling...

ONE MORE THING! Text messenging... ok so since we got back together my h has been pretty good at sending me sweet messages thourgh text messages even a hi or 143. But the past two months i've gotton NONE!! i know he is not texting her b/c i can see it on the bill. BUT i am sick of me still texting him and getting none back. NOw i think he could care less if i text him or not he usually just deletes them anyway. weve discussed this and he keeps saying he'll do it more and never does.

what i'm fighting with. my gut tells me to stop texting all together. i feel like i'm wasting my time BUT i'm not sure if that is a good thing to do or not