I appreciate the people who took the time to read my post.
It made me feel better to know that at least I can get this off my chest.
It also made me think how strange it is that I am finding solace in strangers versus my husband who has always been my best friend.
I honestly dont know when it all started to fade with him.
I can't pinpoint a turning moment because it has been so gradual.
So sad to still love someone so much & want it to work out, but not know how to fix it.