I've been married 12 years, we have 3 children under the age of 10. I've neglected my relationship with my wife for far too long and now she's ready to walk away. I've continuously put other things before my marriage, the most serious of those was pornography. I've asked God for forgiveness, asked her for her forgiveness, and I've been granted forgiveness. She says that while she has forgiven me that she now has no feelings for me romantically anymore.
She says she just feels "numb". She says she still cares for me but doesn't feel like she's "in love" with me anymore. She's ready to walk away because she's no longer happy being married to me. I have truly repented and now she is a priority in my life. I need your prayers that she will fall in love with me again and that she can trust me with her heart again. She truly is the Queen of my life & heart and I don't want to lose her. Why did it have to come to this for me to open my eyes and see the light?

FHL

{{{FHL}}},

Sometimes we don't realise what we have until its gone, yes?
But the important thing is that you have changed your mind.

It is going to be okay.

Father, thankyou for the work you are doing in all our lives, teaching us what it is to love. Please let this couple be reconciled to you and to each other, and show him what he needs to do to help her to trust and love him again.

In Jesus name and for his sake I ask,

Shul

FHL,

Welcome to MB. I love your screenname! I pray also that your W's heart be softened to you & to your M. Sometimes, like Shul said, we don't know what we have until it's gone or is threatened to be gone. Then it's like an unveiling, showing us the destruction that lies all around us from our actions.

I admire you for coming here & trying to be a man of integrity & walk in righteousness after falling. Remember, it's not how many times we fall that matters, it matters how many times we get back up again.

May I ask, what r u doing to regain that trust back? Are you trying to fill her EN's?

To gain her trust back I'm being totally open and totally 100% honest with her. About everything including my feelings for her. I hadn't always done those things in the past. I'm eliminating the Love Busters and trying my best to meet all her Emotional Needs that I can.

Thanks for the encouraging words and especially your prayers. They are deeply appreciated.

God bless.

FHL

FHL,

It's hard to be an open book after your habits have shown otherwise, but I must stress it's necessary in order for your W to regain her trust in you. I commend you for trying to do something about the destruction. It takes a brave soul to look at himself in the mirror & try to correct his flaws.

Keep reading, keep praying & post much. We're all here to help you get through this difficult time. I know these prayer warriors will be praying non-stop for you. Sometimes it's really slow on this part of the board, but a lot do lurk & pray.

Here's hugs for you {{{FHL}}}}}