Good job?!?!

I FLUBBED that. Did you see what she put back?

PLEASE tell me she was just tired and didn't read it clearly. It is really bothering me....

I think she was tired.

If she re-reads it, I think she will get it.

You can fine tune it if it's needed, but I got it, and thought you did well.

SS

NCW,

I read it just now and I am crying like a baby. I have not really slept since last Saturday night. I have the constant convo in my head about why didn't I just keep my mouth shut when he came out of the bar. Why did I get angry and say those horrible things.

If I could just practice patience and exceptance, he would not have left in anger. He would have called me by now. Now it is over, and I feel like this time it is my fault.

Last night was especially bad with the self blame litany in my head. The what if's. Especially the what if I had acted better since it seemed he was trying to change.

None of this is rational, I know. But my head seems to have gotten mixed up with my heart, and rationality has flown out the window. I feel like I am free falling without a rip chord.

Well I just wanted to tell you that I got your post. I really needed to read it. I need to read it until I can believe it.

Thank you NCW.

Weaver - so terribly sorry you are beating yourself up over the bar incident. You are such a sweet lady always doling out good advice to wounded hearts. You KNOW you will feel better soon. TT

Thank you TT.

I know it will get better soon.

Wish I could quit thinking of myself. I forgot how self-absorbed pain makes one.

Even makes one threadjack all over the place. LOL

I hate this.

Good JOB is right!! We crossposted, nc.

At least I think that you meant me, but maybe my self-esteem bugger jumped out in front too fast!

Love you guys. And weaver,I have been thinking about hta pain/self-absorbed thing ALOT lately. Everyone is entitled, even YOU!

Wish me luck with the (kinda) little ones today! I actually can't wait, we are going to the botanical gardens!! S7 and I garden together. Your thread last nite, weaver made me wonder where everyone is and what kind of flowers they are growing.

Gonna go put hte horses out now. We finally got some rain last nite. Great for the flowers and the pasture, that is, until i put those hooves out there to tear it up!

jls

And weaver,

I work in a bar, parttime. THIS place is more fun, and definitely worth the time. I bring my own booze!

jls,

You are going to have a good day at the gardens. At one time gardening was a passion of mine. I am getting excited to get back into it again.

I was a bartender for ten years. I can only see one use for bars and that is for picking up someone. I have such a dislike of them now that I am irrational where they are involved I think. I never saw anything good come of them anyway. It's a decent job for cash if you can stay removed from their darkness.