Well this weekend is the anniversary of when my WW started her A. Turns out the convention were the A started is in my town this year. I also had belonged to the same organization back then but left because of the whole drama surrounding the A. It was quite a scandal.

Well I still have lots of friends in the organization and the organizer of this years convention asked me to play the national anthem on my guitar for the opening of the convention. He is a really good friend and I wanted to help him out so I agreed.

I know WW will be at the event and there is a good possiblity that OM will be there as well. It hadn't really bothered me up to this point but now a day before the event I'm wondering whether this is going to cause me to trigger in a huge way. I just have to go in there play my bit and leave, so I don't have to talk or socialize with them. I hopefully won't even see them.

My thinking is that this is a big step into my personal healing. If I can deal with this, I figure I'm doing a good job of moving on. But is it going to be too much?

What do you think? Am I nuts?

Miker

Can I answer these separately? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

WHAT I THINK:

I think you should play the anthem and be cool ... and wear a potato in the FRONT of your pants (old joke ... too embarrasing to re-tell)

Are You NUTZ?

Join the club!

Pep<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/cool.gif" alt="" />

PEP:

I'm learning from you how it's OK for me to have a sense of humor!

THANKS from one of the NUTZ!

Not only is it OK ... but IT IS NECESSARY for your happiness!

Pep <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/cool.gif" alt="" />

Pep your right! I am nuts! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/laugh.gif" alt="" />

F- them and F- triggers!

I'm going to go hit them with my 10 minutes of fame and then get the heck out of there and leave them thinking what the heck hit 'em.

Triggers -- Shmiggers!

Miker

EGG-zak-lee

Pep<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/cool.gif" alt="" />

Wow. Can I have your autograph? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Go out there and enjoy your performance. Forget the WS and OP stuff..... they may be a face in the crowd but this is for you and what you enjoy. Keep positive thoughts.

It is great to see good talents put to use. At MB there have been several in the musical field who have posted here. There are many more talented MBers out there who benefitted from letting their talents be one of their healing tools.

All the best.
L.

Thanks Orchid. I didn't wimp out and things did end up going pretty good. Didn't see WW or OM while I was there either so that was good too! I did have a bit of DDay anniversary syndrome later on after everything. I guess that's to be expected.

Music has been a godsend to me. Before the A although I had played and listened alot I had never written a song. Now I've written several. They are all pretty personal and filled with a lot of anger and pain so I'm not sure I'm ready to share them with anyone, but I know for sure writing music was extremely therapeutic for me.

Cheers,

Miker

Glad to hear your performance went well. It is the WS' loss not t/b able to enjoy your talents.

Your artistic side c/b viewed as a good tool to help you heal. I personally don't have an artistic side (can't sing even in the shower - LOL!!!) and can't draw, paint or make anything worth calling artistic. LOL!! So others like me have to find other tools to heal with (like eating chocolate -LOL!! just kidding).

I know few others MBers who used to post here who were recording artist, songwriter and performers. One has a WS who is in an orchestra. The BS plays the guitar. Maybe I can get him to post to you. We'll see.

Quite proud of you. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Aloha,
L.

Much thanks O,

Found out both WW and OM were at the event. And the person I talked to said they looked like they weren't together anymore.

6 months ago that would have made my day, but now I'm kind of disappointed... I really thought they deserved one another. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> Can't be bad though, since I don't want my kids to have anything to do with that creep.

Apparently OM also tried to apologize to one of my friends for ruining his friendship with WW. My friend said "What a thing to apologize for in all this!". I tend to agree, destruction of two families and all you can say is sorry for wrecking a friendship. What a putz!

I guess at least OM knows the word "sorry" (even if he doesn't know what it means) which is more I can say for WW. Apparently she likes to pretend like nothing has happened...

What a piece of work those two are.... Updates are always entertaining...

Ah well back to our regular scheduled programming...

Miker