Just when I think I am taking care of myself and moving on, I have a day like today. I spend most of the day crying. <BR>Mostly over the fact that my daughter has to spend overnights with my h. I am having a really hard time with this. I know its the law, but it doesn't feel right to me. I think she needs as much stability right now as possible. She needs to sleep in her own bed. How do I get past this? I cant imagine her net being with me when she wakes up in the morning. She has never spent a day away from me sinse she was born. I feel like Im losing my mind.<BR>I also am having a difficult time realizing that my marriage is over. My h doesnt love me. As neasty as this has been, I still love him, but he doesnt love me.<BR>He told me that his affair is over, but they still communicate by phone. He claims they are just freinds. <BR>How can he not love me? No, I wasnt perfect, but I am willing to make it work. He just wants to run away and not look back. He says that he has moved on and that I need to do the same.<BR>I dont want to be single. I want my marriage back, but I know that is not going to happen. How do I get over this? I keep hoping for a miracle, but all I see is more trouble.<BR>I have no more strength. I cant do this anymore. I dont even know what to do anymore.<BR>

CC-<P>Will you take a minute out and say a prayer for me? Sometimes helping someone else out helps yourself.<P>What will you do with yourself this evening? Cruise Wal-mart?<P>(((hugs)))

Cheryl - <P>I too face divorce in the near future. I am convinced that our spouses WILL REGRET this major decision. The question is, will we want to be there when they realize just how bad they f**ked up?<P>Believe me when I tell you that your H will live to regret what has happened. I know that is little consolation now. Place ALL your trust in Jesus...He will NEVER forsake you. In fact, He is working ona wonderful solution for you as we speak. You just don't know what it is until He reveals it to you. Hang in there Cheryl!!!

I'm here for you, Cheryl. I'm not worth a whole h*** of a lot, but I AM here. So here's my best hug and all my prayers. I'll talk with you later.<P>Lori

Hi CeeCee -<P>How you feeling now?<P>Did you go off to "cruise" Walmart? (he-he) TNT - you're so good!!!<P>I'm having the same feelings as you CeeCee as far as not wanting to be single and "how could he not love me?"<P>You have to just hang in and trust God and yourself......your life is headed somewhere. I will have to admit that it does stink that we don't even get a hint as to where though!!!<P>We're gonna make it through this.......if it kills us - we will make it through first!!!! LOL!!<P>a Big Hug to you and nows that chance to do something for yourself tonight - ice long bubble bath with candles some pure moods and a glass of wine????<P>Or clean out that junk drawer or any other intricate little time consuming projects that can go easier with out distractions......<P>We're here with ya!!!!<P>Sheba

I'm here Cheryl. I'm so sorry that you feel so bad. I'm in a funk to tonight. Just know I'm thinking about you. Not much help myself tonight as I have been sitting here crying. I don't know why just a feeling I have this week that is unsettling. Take care and I'll talk to ya later.