You can't say nobody wished you a happy birthday! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Many happy returns, TM <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Thanks Whisper and FF!...


It's not early anymore - I just saw it now - right on time!

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I guess I have to change my signature line now.....maybe I'll drag my feet a bit. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />


TM

Happy Birthday TM! We have to keep the faith that even though this one may be tough, they will get better in subsequent years. Just know that we are all thinking of you and you do matter! Are the Stros in town? If so, head over to Minute Maid and catch a game for me. As tough as things are for us, its a lot worse for the Stros right now. And what about poor ol' Roger Clemens, talk about feeling like you are doing things all on your own! That guy cant get any help. I know, I know....they are just playing a game, but it is a game that mirrors life in a lot of ways! You will fail more times than you will succeed in the game of baseball. In baseball, if you fail 7 out of 10 times you are at the plate, they put you in the Hall of Fame (unless you are Pete Rose) and nobody remembers how many times you failed, only how many times you were successful.
I guess thats what this is all about. We keep getting up day after day and doing our best. We dont let our defeats keep us down, we only focus upon our successes. Everyday we get up, we have a chance to be successful no matter what happened yesterday. Be thankful for your day today, and for subsequent days to come! Happy Birthday!



"the wheels are turning on the last train to Amsterdam"
Ray Wylie Hubbard

WCNTX -

Thanx for the well wishes.

Unfortunately, I am no sports fan, so I wouldn't get the enjoyment out of a baseball game that most of my gender would.

I am honestly having a pretty rough night.

My MIL called, which surprised me, seeing how she defends her daughter 'til the cows come home. Every time we talk, I just get upset and hurt. And my plans fell through tonight as well.

So here I sit, all alone *as usual* drowning my sorrows a bit *not as usual, but as sometimes happens*, in the dark, thinking of how much was taken from me, and how I really don't think I will ever be able to take her back. Even if she came to me today.


I will survive, though.

Somehow.



TM

TM,
I was thinking as I wrote that previous post that you had mentioned you werent a sports fan, but I wrote it anyway. I guess I was suggesting it as a way to be out and around others and as an escape mechanism. I dont think you really have to be a fan to use it to escape.
I, on the other hand, am a fan. My team plays 70 home games a year and 70 on the road. Right now I wish we could play all 140 games at home. The 3 hours it takes for each game, is 3 hours that I dont have time to even think about my sitch. And that my friend is a blessing, even though my team is not playing that well right now (only 3 games above .500 and 5 games behind the division leader). The prospects dont look good either as our 21 year old catcher just got called up to Seattle. Oh well. Like our sitchs, the season is not a sprint but a marathon. I try not to get too high on the highs and too low on the lows. It would be nice though in regards to my sitch to have some highs every now and then. Thats what makes this tough. Gotta stay busy though. Try new things. You never know, we have never been in this place before, we might be mentally ready to enjoy something we never have before.




"the wheels are turning on the last train to Amsterdam"
Ray Wylie Hubbard

WCNTX -

I do need to be busier. Most weeks are OK, and I keep my weekends way too busy...I have found distractions that are unhealthy long term. I don't know if you have ever read my Plan B Journal II - but I detail there some of my escapades.

I know what you mean about the three hours during your game. I had a very intense two-day job recently - 12 hour days, and was so busy tring to get finished by the deadline, that I didn't have any time to be sad, angry, disillusioned, etc. I have a hard time getting motivated, but once in gear, I am one driven ba$[censored]. Finding the jobs has been hard for me though...I am just not up for the sales part presently.

One of the curses of being self-employed.



TM

TM,
I know exactly what you mean about the sales thing. Being in minor league baseball I have to wear a lot of hats. Gameday operations, advertising, promotions, and sales. Sales being the biggest part of it because I am salary plus commission. My initial discovery took place the second week of January. With our season approaching in April, the Jan-March timeframe is my most important time sales-wise. Well this whole sitch, just sapped all the creative energy right out of me. My success is dependent upon my ability to create elements for my clients that will deliver the results they want for their business. Needless to say, it was a tough year sales wise. I am SO very fortunate to have a boss who is also one of my best friends. He continues to stand by me through this and has told me that he will give me whatever I need. I havent taken any time off even though it was offered. I figured I needed to be here and around my friends at this time. You know, when I look at it, I am blessed in a lot of ways.
We need to, as difficult as it is, acknowledge and be grateful for the good things in our lives. Although, I dont know you well, I am sure that if you look there are some good things in your life.



"the wheels are turning on the last train to Amsterdam"
Ray Wylie Hubbard

Happy birthday TM!

I hope you are well.

One hint on the MIL, don't talk to her. She is getting your wife's fix from you, for her. I think it would be a very good idea to put MIL on your Plan B list :-)

All the best,
Gimble