Hi sorry I have not been on a lot lately , just finishing up the year. Things have been going OK. I have been working on me and really trying to mend the things inside of me that needed to be mended. I am once again not revolving my daily emotions etc around his roller coaster emotions.

I still do NOT know if there is anything to be suspious about. Again as said b/4 i'm in the same situation: he does NOT contact her via cellphone, home email, house phone or in person outside of work or when at home. i know all of those for a fact.

what i do not know is weather he contacts her at work, (either in person (like she still works there) or if he calls, emails her at work) or if he is using our internet to send her text messages or emails from another email addy.

there is still soem of his deleting the history which he denys. but I dont know if it leads to anything. and who knows maybe he really didnt delete the history everytime.

but i still dont know how to prove any of these things either way. if somethigns going on at work. i cant findout. if he is emailing her etc while at home. it will be stopped as of now since i'm on my summer break! (the computer is in the middle of the living room... he cant get on it privatly at especially with me home!)

so do i contunie to sit and see if he messes up. do i start to trust him more. id otn know i'm kinda at an edge right now. some days i feel real positvie(like today) others i'm not so sure.....

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Some of what I am going through is similar to what you are going through. I can really relate to your feelings. I can confirm no contact via certain channels, but they are still working together, so he could be talking with OW there...I don't think they are, but then the fear takes over. Sometimes, I am so afraid to trust him <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" /> Problem is, I still work at my job too where OM is, so my H has the same issue-- he just does not talk about it much.

I would consider installing spyware on your computer (logs everything...takes screenshots, shows e-mail sent/received, programs used, etc.) This might ease your mind and prove him innocent. Problem is, if you are in recovery, then you need to tell him about it get his agreement. When we got it, JHC told us to each create 1/2 of the password, that way, it could never be accessed without both of us there. I do not check it very often, but it makes me feel better it is there.

Good Luck!