Well the results are in and it is my husbands child, I knew in my heart that it was but it doesn't make the actual truth any easier. I had a small hope that she was the whore I have envisioned her to be. I wanted this to be over. I wanted it not to be his. I wanted to go back to my semi normal life, I wanted to not have to deal with the OW for the rest of my life. I am not sure that I am strong enough for this. I am losing my faith in everything. I just want it all to end.

LA

[color:"red"] You're reaction is VERY normal. Do something for YOU today. Pamper yoruself...you deserve it. I understand those feelings completey of wanting it to be over.

It's OK if you are NTO strong enough...that's what GOD is for! Lean on HIM for your faith.

BIG hugs to you.

xoxoxo
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I'm sorry LA. It is so hard to receive confirmation of your worst fear - H is OC father. No matter how strong the evidence I think we all hope in our heart that H won't be the father so when the DNA test comes back it is like DDay all over. And for me when the CS/visitation papers came -- it happened all over. I wish there were someway we could lessen the pain for one another but we can't. However we can say you're not alone, we know exactly how you feel at this moment.

Hang in there!

I'm sorry LA. I fear the day we receive the letter in the mail with my H's results. Even though I feel the OC is his it will kill me seeing DNA match. Be strong. It'll get better. The worst parts are over. We are all here for ya so vent all you want.

I'm sorry for your pain. My H hasn't had a DNA test even though we know its his but I can only imagine how hard it would be to actually see it on paper. I just feel that it would give the OW a sense of something to see it too. I'm sure she would dance around cursing me out saying she "won" or something. It still is VERY hard! I know I still think about it a lot and can't believe that its true. I can't believe that I have this "cloud" over my marriage. I'm sure most feel that way. They think, WHAT HAPPENED? WHY? You do recover I know but there are those days that you just think, WHY DID IT HAPPEN TO ME???? I think, you know, if my H and I ever got a D (not at all in the future) but if we did, that if I got married again, it still would not make things heal. I wish you the best of luck and you need to remember that there are always people here for you. You are a wonderful person like everyone else on here who has stuck it out and worked on repairing their marriages even though at times, it seems like a dead end because of the pain and memories that tend to creep up on you without warning! *HUGS*

you poor thing OMG I know it breaks your heart all over again.

I can only say throw things get it all out now Because if you surpress it it will pop up in the middle of the grocery store while your checking out.... and some thing triggers it. or some other inconvenient place trust me.

I tried to keep it in for my H sake he was doing A CONTRACT negotiation so i kept the results from him till it was over... I was a total mess for 3 days... if I had to do it all over I would have told him right away.

I was devestated and my best friend was out of town and she was the only one i told she was so worried that she was going to fly in, to help me.

I know it will be a rollercoaster with all the court dates and he said she said crap and CS and so forth... Mine has not been settled yet and its been... over a year.

My heart goes out to you LA. I hope it comforts you to hear from others who know the same pain you are feeling. In my own case I am a man who was presented with a child I thought was my own until he was 6 months old. I have found hope and strength in this place and I want to offer you the comfort from a stranger that I have gotten from others.

There is a poem called 'Footprints' that I have loved for years. It speaks of God carrying you when you don't have the strength to walk alone. He is carrying me right now and I hope He has you on His other arm. Hang in there.

Hi LA, Just wanted to let you know, I feel your pain. We got the reults last week and it is my H's child as well. I knew it was in my heart as well, but there's always that small chance that this could all be over! Oh well. We will continue as we have w/pursuing visitation and paying CS. Now to tell the kids, ugh. I think we will tell them on Sunday. My H will be home all day Sunday and Monday for any questions and then the baby can come visit on Tuesday. I still have this hope in my heart that OW will move away (her family is 800 miles away), but am willing to see how it goes. Likely I will become as attached to this child as my children and H and eventually, won't want that to happen either. Good luck to you in your search for peace, I know it's a daily struggle. HUGS!