Hi. I just reread the post about Mike and Joan and Roxy from Bob P. It made me sooo sad and also made me look at this situation that I am in, I ??? created.
Bob, your posts always strike deep. I can still hear you say, not too long ago - glad you didn't get the ink ??? How true and telling was that !!! Thank God you are here for all of us.
I do believe that the A is over, for now at least. WH mentions alot about moving out of state. I am assumming he wants to separate himself from her. This I do not know, but am hoping, duh. He tells me it is because of the climate. Yes, Texas is friggin hot in summer, but this is a man who is an exbiker (he tells me you are never an exbiker, it is more of lifestyle - I sure know how to pick 'em !!!) construction worker, trucker for cryin out loud. The heat does not bother this man.
Assumming the A is over, I have been stepping back from it all, perhaps getting too complacent or just really need a break from all the drama !!! We did go through and fill out the emtional needs in SAA. Things I already knew, but it was a start. I hang on his every word. Trying to see what and why really happened. I doubt if I will get the truth from him any time soon. But -- I have distanced myself from it all. I guess easy to do, since no drama is going on and he is here 24/7.
He has been doing work around the house and yard that he put off being on the road. God help me, this man needs a job soon. But -- then I will be anxious all over again ?? I must get some answers, peace before then.
I do put boundaries down. For myself anyway. I guess I just wanted to journal a bit here. Tell y'all I am so thankful for this place that I go to everyday ! I am still here, trying my best to be stronger and smarter. I think I am, but..... thanks again.
Carnation
