well my husband finally showed up..ugh..i'm so mad at myself..on Sunday..and again on Monday..he came over and we got along great!!..very affectionate to each other.and yes..we slept together. I know it was stupid of me, but i know he does still love me and misses our family, but unfortunately he's still seeing the OW..and everytime they aren't getting along i hate to say it, but that seems to me to be the perfect time to make deposits in the love bank..maybe sleeping with him isn't the smartest thing, in fact i know it isn't, but it's too hard to resist. His son Jaimie came up yesterday, not Saturday like i had thought. And of course he and the OW are getting along again (Jaimie is thier son they had before he and i met)..it's like he's in this "One big happy family" mode with the two of them now and it's killing me. Jaimie will be leaving for Georgia on Saturday. When my husband was here he told me she said to him "you were never here for Jaimie when he was small, you let me fend for myself and i think you should do the same with them", meaning us!!!..And like i said, that night was the 4th of July and he spent it on the beach with me and our boys..his arm around me..like old times..even spent the night. Yesterday when he left he of course went to go see the OW and when he returned here, he was acting different again. And it broke my heart..we got into a little arguement over the fact that he had gotten $300 yesterday and only gave me 60 of it. Today i called him to see if he was going to fix my car or bring me one so i can get my son in to see his lawyer and he was acting very cold..i just don't know what to do..i'm sitting here crying...how do i handle all of this? i don't want to make him think i'm the [censored] now, but i dont' want to give him the impression that everything that's going on is ok either. PLEASE help..he'll be over soon and i know he'll have an attitude

Well..after the past couple of days of him acting a bit distant towards me, i think i need to make a decision. He went back to the cities today to bring Jaimie back so he can catch his plane, and told me he'd be staying down there for the rest of the week. Last night and this morning were real tough on my kids and myself so i'm thinking that i'll just wait til he gets down there and calls, then tell him that i've decided it's just best we go out seperate ways, no more hugging, kissing, sleeping together..letting him get our hopes up by telling us it's not going to work out between him and the OW, telling me how he misses us, how he loves me..then turn around and leave here to go see her..it's killing me!!..so i think i need to stir the pot a bit and tell him that as soon as we find a place in the cities and get settled in, that we can start concentrating on getting divorce preceedings started..tell me if that would be a mistake, if i'm jumping the gun here..cuz i still love him very much, but this has all been more than i can handle and i don't want to put my kids through any more hurt