Hi there Wife,

Haven't been on much due to being busy busy with Cayden. I wanted to check in with you and see how you are doing? You're almost there!!! =o) How are you feeling? Are you excited? I'm excited for you! Let me know how you are doing. I hope everyone else is doing well too!

Megan

Hi! How is Cayden doing? Is he wearing you out?

I am doing fine. I have been following my Gestational Diabetes diet pretty good, and monitoring my blood sugars. They said I am doing pretty good w/ them. I have an appt. w/ my regular doctor tomorrow. On July 13th (one week) I should know a little more about when they'll deliver. They will do the sonogram on that day. If she's 8 pounds, they'll induce, if she's 9 pounds or bigger they'll do a c-section and if she's smaller, they may let me carry her until I go into labor on my own. They are concerned about her size. They said she was measuring a week and a half bigger than she should be. Because of the diabetes they will not let me deliver if she's larger than 9 pounds. They don't want to take any chances of her being injured during delivery.

Things w/ H could definitely be better. I think I get more emotional as the days approach. He still has some work to do in the nursery. He stayed at his apt. last night. He usually does when he's tired of hearing stuff from me. I don't seem to be very good at Plan A or B.

OW seems certain that she and H will end up together and I have to wonder why she feels so strongly about it. H is upset w/ me because I was trying to discuss somethings for our divorce agreement regarding CS. He seems to think I only want money from him. Which is definitely not the case, but I am getting nervous about paying for everything here on my own. Even w/ CS as we will have child care very shortly.

Hi there,

I'm not really worn out per-say (spelling?), I just miss sleeping for more then two hours straight. He has made a schedule so that has been nice but like I said, its the 2ish feeding that seems to get me. Plus, I still do not make enough breastmilk for him, even with pumping and having him nurse, so he gets mostly formula which makes me a little sad. But he does get to nurse during the day to but it NEVER holds him to the next feeding two hours away. He eats like a little hoglet though! 4 to 5 ounces every 2 hours! I love being a mom. A nice thing is is that we are trying our hardest to work it so I can be a stay at home mom, and the odds are pretty good!!!!
We haven't had OC since Cayden was born but we have him thursday and I am soooo reluctant. I know that sounds horrid and what I might say next might make a lot of people mad, but I have my family now and well, (sorry guys) I just don't want him around. I know i know, I'm sure I will get a lot of posts telling me what a terrible outlook but over the last four weeks, we have had such a wonderful time not having to deal with OW picking him up and creating a scene and all that jazz. Its been nice not having him around so I'm not reminded of all the pain and hurt. I mean, its hard and with Cayden here, I just get so much more emotional with the whole OW/OC situation. Although, yes she is still crazed about calling my husband during the last four weeks. My husband just can't take her anymore. He just finished his 3 weeks of leave and went back to a crew from doing overnights with the navy. So he is working with her m-f because she has a set schedule of 7-3. Although she was pulled off all her quals and sent to work B**** work in the office and never really sees him unless she goes into radar, it still bothers the HECK OUT OF ME. Before this all happened, I'd go to work and bring him stuff and now, the thought of being there when she is there, makes me want to hunt her out and hang her out to dry. She just makes me sick and they extended her in the navy another 6 months (was getting kicked out in JUNE) because her cheif had to call EMS on her the other day because she went crazy. So now, they labeled her "insanely" depressed...sorry, I got a great laugh out of that. She says she can't take Mike not wanting to be around her and the baby. EMS came and got her and all that jazz...nice nice nice. What a sad woman?!?!?!
ANYWAYS...sorry for my tangent(spelling?) As for you Miss.Wife30, I wish you the BEST in the upcoming weeks! I remember (that it was all that long ago) HOW excited I was when I finally got a clear path of what the doc was going to do (i.e. induce me). My mind was set at ease and I finally KNEW when I was going to meet my son! The c-section scared me to death though. When they wheeled me in at 3:00am on June 2, I lost it and started crying. I can't take operating rooms at all...so just remember, pretty soon, you will get to hold the most precious thing in the world, your daugther! I kept telling myself that throughout the hours of labor when the drugs weren't working hehehehehe....She will be 110% worth it and you will feel NOTHING so deep like the feeling you get when you hear that first cry and see that little face, looking at you helplessly! =o) *tears* hehe...I love being a mommy...I get all choked up just typing my post...silly Megan. As for your H, well, you know what, he is going to miss out on something so wonderful. I mean, I know he is going to be there, but for all the H's that cheated, they really gave up something special, their families. I know I am with my H still but there will always be that void in my husband's heart like he tells me all the time from all the pain he has caused me. So I hope your H realizes how much he is going to lose out when you finally divorce him. I wish there was a better outcome for you both but its only you who can make that decision and you seem to be doing quite well. I can ONLY imagine how you are feeling right now though and all your emotions with everything. But remember that you are only helping yourself and your little one. Did you pick a name yet? I remember talking to you before but I think you weren't 100% sure yet....I hope you the best and PLEASE let me know how your appt goes! =o) GOOD LUCK!

We are going to name her Chloe.

I can definitely understand your feelings about it being easier to not have to deal w/ OW. Of course it's easier of you don't have to deal w/ her. How does your H feel? I remember though that you seemed to enjoy being around OC, so maybe your feelings will change when you see him again? I'm sure your emotions/hormones may still be getting to you. I can gurantee you mine are going crazy! Like I said the closer it gets, the more emotional I am getting.

Why are they kicking OW out of the military?

So, she's having breakdowns because your H won't be w/ her and the baby? How long was their A?

I am glad things are going well for you for the most part. I know what you mean about going to H's work, the first few times I went to H's office it made me nauseous. I was nervous of what people would think, etc... I was also nervous to run into OW. I walked in and held my head high though and most people treat me well. When OW heard I went to his office one time, she had the nerve to tell me that I made people uncomfortable! That pissed me off. Her and H having an A. didn't make people uncomfortable, but me visiting H at work made people uncomfortable? I had to remind myself that was coming from her, not them. (Although someone told her I was there.)

Hurt5' I understand your feelings of no outsiders interfering with your familly unit. You should have your private special moments with your husband and son all to your self... I feel for you, One of the reasons my husband choose NO contact, he did not want to disrupt our family unit. The xow does that enough with her stalking.

Omg that was so funny about your xow "insanely depressed" No ya think? lol She has to be to get involved with a MM any old way Hello people LOL I am just laughing my butt off over that.

Wife30...according to my H and OW, the A was not more then two weeks. As for my h's feelings with OC, he resents him beyond words. He knows he is innocent but I guess being human, sometimes its hard to break the two apart and realize that fact. I just don't want him over here ever. It isn't that I don't think he is a great kid, I just can't move past the fact that he is from an A. Plus she just thinks she can tell us what to do and how to do it when he's over here. I'm sure she thinks I secretly hang OC upside down and beat him with a wet rag or something. Today she asked my H why he was denying his son "daddy" time...excuse me? Come on little miss.i live in a dream world but it wasn't exactly a planned happy pregnancy.
In regards to the OW and his work, I KNOW that moment she finds out I'm there, she'd run up to the radar room just to piss me off. That is how she is. I mean, she says she doesn't want to create drama but she sure does. With all the frickin text messages and messages left on my h's cell. He never answers until he hears her message and if its something important, he will call back. *sigh* I'm just frustrated I guess because with her getting kicked out of military, she gets a $13000 settlement and my H and I are in the process of filing a Ch13 because we can't get our heads above water.
She is getting "kicked" out because she has been in a certain number of years but didnt' make a certain rank, therefore you can not re-enlist. As for her being crazy, I guess they put her on all kinds of meds ...lol...poor woman, you think you won, but you didn't. I made it through an A and an OC and NEVER once went on meds. Not that I wouldn't have gone on them if I really needed them. But just look at the situation, I came out mostly damaged inside in a way, yet quite shiny and happy on the outside and SHE didn't...sorry to get a laugh over someone else's wellbeing but its just ironic. *HAHAHAHAHA* *HAHAHAHAHA*
I LOVE THE NAME CHLOE!!! If we were having a girl, she was going to be Chloe Paige! Wierd!! I hope you are alright. I know how hard it was being pregnant and dealing with it all, although I had my H around still in a marriage without the threat of a divorce. I can't imagine that.
oooo...little man just woke up..I got a WHOLE 2 hours to myself this morning! Off to do some errands...take care!

If your H feels that way about OC, and you do as well, then why are ya'll having visitation? Were you pushing visitation before your baby was born?

I definitely believe in contact, but if your H doesn't want it, then I guess I'm just wondering why you are going to have contact?

well I thought things would be ok before Cayden was born. I thought I could do it but now, my whole outlook has changed. I know it must sound terrible but its so much easier when he isn't here. As for WHY we are doing it? Well we aren't paying CS, we pay daycare every 2 weeks and supply all diapers, food and wipes to daycare...so if we didnt' see him, she would go for CS and we have NO way of paying CS...we would be hurting worst then we already are. So I'm not sure...its just my emotions because its been SOOOOOOOO nice not having to deal with all that mess for a whole month. So nice of not getting angry or sick to my stomach...?

I can certainly understand the financial situation you are in, but w/ things the way they are couldn't she go to court for CS and retroactive CS? I know this was something I was worried about w/ H and OW when they didn't have a legal agreement. Be careful.

I hope that since you are going to see OC, it is a nice visit and you are able to enjoy him as you had before.

haven't seen oc yet because ow says we don't get back to her "soon" enough so she made other plans for him all week. What a weenie! As for the CS, she doesn't want any. She told her Chief as well, so they sat down and wrote out a document that says she does not want CS and they had it notorized(spelling?). She has told us before she doesn't want CS, just wants H to be in picture.

Well, I hope the notarized statement works.

So, did ya'll plan on when you might see OC? At least this gives you a little more time to spend w/ Cayden before you bring OC over.

OW told my H she needed a break from being a mom, so we have him saturday night so she can go out and get drunk and well....not sure if the paper will work. Who knows? =o)She waived her rights to CS...which can be done..so we'll see if she ever pushes it that far.