Ran into STBX on the fourth, he was with the OW, his EX and kids. They all looked pretty chummy to me. I tried to leave before they saw me so I wouldn't have to deal but, STBX called out my name.

I tried to ignore him and kept on moving but, he called my name again. I just stood there frozen in my tracks.

When he came over to me he acted like there wasn't anything wrong with this picture.

I got curious stares from his kids and daggers from the EX and the OW. As I stood there I heard them whispering to each other then they looked at me and started laughing.

I guess I did look pretty stupid just standing there so I excused myself telling my STBX that I had somewhere to be.

He had the nerve to ask me where I was headed. He wanted to know if I was meeting someone special. I told him to mind his own business and left.

When I got home it all hit me like a ton of bricks. I started shaking and crying uncontrollably, I knew he was uncaring but, to stop me like that so THEY (his EX and OW) could laugh at me in my face that was just cruel.

I can't wait to get my hands on the divorce papers. I'm going to sign them so fast it's going to make his head spin.

I hope to put him and this whole ordeal behind me ASAP. I went to see a specialist and he told me that things will get easier once the divorce is finalized, I should have some closure then.

I hope he's right, I don't think I can deal with this for much longer. I haven't been getting enough sleep, and I barely eat. I feel so empty all the time now.

Everyone keeps telling me that I'm young and I can bounce back from all this but, to be perfectly honest I don't feel so young. As a matter of fact, I feel pretty damn old.

But, I hope everyone's right and soon I'll be back to my old self again.

NO, not my old self I don't like who she was. I hope to see my new improved self, the one who's learned from her mistakes. The wiser me!

Only

So sorry. Maybe somebody ate his frontal lobe. What is wrong with those women (and with him?)

You feel old because you are grieving. Honest, it will get better. What a mess you have left! Take care of yourself. You'll get through this, honest.

HI Only,

I think what they did was not only childish, but very rude too!
I think it says alot about them and their character. As if you didn't know it already.

I know people always say that it will get better, in time, but it doesn't help right now too much.

I know how you feel. Like there is an open hole in you stomach. I have been there too, along with so many others here.

Time is the huge factor here. I remember the first few times I saw my x with ow. It all but killed me.

I have been divorced 1.5 years now. He married her in May.
I can tell you that the two of them no longer trigger all the emotions that they once had so much control over.
I still have nothing to say to her, but at the same time, I don't feel I worked up anymore when I see them/her.

I will also say that when they are with someone who doesn't know me, they also will stare at me. I often wonder what is being said, but then I try to consider the source, and remember they are the real fools!
They were the dishonest ones. They should be the ones hanging their heads!

Take care of yourself and give yourself time to heal.

Karona

OnlyOneMe -

I know how it feels to be old before your time....

Have you thought about moving to a new city? I am moving to return to my schooling in the near future, and am looking forward to a fresh start, in a new city. Also, there will be no chance of running into my WW, and far fewer things to trigger me. If you can, move somewhere and start COMPLETELY over. It will do you good.

TM