Well..Im still hanging in there! My husband is still here and still threatening to leave.

The home is, however, a pretty pleasant place to be. Prozac and prayer have made me calm and placid. Very little upsets or riles me. The children are getting a little older and much easier to manage.

My husband is still pretty much addicted to the internet. he still spends about 3 hours or more a night online chatting with his homosexual friends. I no longer let it upset me. I watch TV or read or chat with my friends and I make sure that Im in bed by a decent hour so I will be refreshed the next morning. We still have SF sometimes, usually initiated by him and sometimes by me.

Occasionally he talks about divorce , but Ive made clear that that is his decision and I will not make the choice for him. He still plans to leave in the long run...:( Or thats what he says.

Spiritually Ive learned to rely on the Lord for my support. I truly often feel the Holy Ghost as a comforter. I think thats better than any man in lots of ways! I know that this long in a PlanA type situation should have me burned out but I rarely feel that anymore.

My husband and I go dancing regularly and have made some great friends in doing this. Its another thing that ties us together.

I still dont knwo where we are going. I can only tell you all of the peace that getting myself sorted out spiritually and following the MB plan has brought to me.

I have also found a yahoo group of other women from my church who are in the same or similar situations and it feels great not to be so alone in my struggles.

Best of all I met a lady called Tracy in my group. We have so much in common that its scary. She is about where i was 2 years ago. Marriage Builders and related book have given me so many tools to help her not to have to go through what I have been through. The other day she emailed me and told me that my advice and HNHN has done more for her marriage than 4 different shrinks!

Thankyou all so much for everything that you have taught me, for your words of sympathy, love and support and for the odd 2 X 4 ! I dont drop by this site as often as I used to but I recommend it to so many people.

many hugs to you all. I will continue to lurk and post occasionally and hope too that one day I may get my happy ending <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Love and hugs to all of you

Debra xx