I am soo Angry with WH right now I can't stand it. he disappears for 3 days and just expects noone to be worried. he is such an A$$. I cannot believe the nerve of him. then he calls me and blames me for his mom being upset. i didn't upset her he did with his total disregard for how she feels about the situation. his b called 3-4 times last night and was worried that something had happened to him so he woke his mom at about 11 last night so she got worried. she called his work this mornng and found out he wasn't working and really got worried about him. he is such an idoit. then b finds him this afternoon at OW house. such an a$$. i spent last night comforting our 2 year old cause she wanted her daddy and he was no where to be found. i would like to beat the crap out of him right now. this little stunt didn't hurt me it just makes me angry. got another letter from his bank yesterday he is 500 in the hole and sinking fast. he can't touch my money so maybe going to jail over bad checks will wake him up. if he goes to jail he will loose his job, retirement,insurance and he certainly can't pay chil support from there. but i will be okay cause when i am working i make more money anyway. so let him sink. i love him but he is going to have to learn the hard way i guess. i will no longer bail his butt out he will have to do it on his own. then when he wakes up maybe i will still be here. ohhhh i am so mad at him <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />

i know how you feel...believe me. I don't know what to say, because I find myself sitting here wondering why I'm doin this much like I'm sure you are - its our job as the BS to be a lighthouse for our WS even if they trample on us. Hang in there - just think of it this way; worse case scenario - nothing ever works out and we, as the BS, let go...relief will come in time and the pain will end.

Sitting here trying to pretend like I'm cheerful is the hardest thing I've ever had to do; there isn't a day that goes by where I don't feel like I can't do it in some way, shape, or form. But in my eyes - all of this pain is worth even a .00001% of restoring my marriage.

yeah i just get so angry at the alien that has taken over my husbands body. just really need to vent. i wish i knew someone that gave boxing lessons i could us that to vent some of my frustrations.

Alien came by today in and out. talked to mc and he is angry with his behavior. but oh well i will keep my cool and vent here later. stupid alien. this is funny he got a do it your self d book. like thats going to work. we get a d and i will have a shark on my side to eat him alive