Greetings,
Recently I was on a trip and ordered a massage to my hotel room (suggestion: don't ever do that). There was no "consumation" or even touching of things. But I saw everything, and I feel horrible horrible horrible. I feel amazingly bad for two reasons: 1. What I did was absolutely wrong and sinful! 2. This could hurt my wife SO BADLY. I deserve all the pain/guilt I feel, but here is my "A/B" question:

Should I:
A. Deal with everything myself and never ever tell my wife; sparing her the pain and agony of this one-time mistake?
B. Tell my wife, being open and honest, but cause her an unimaginable amount of pain for years to come?

Please help... I'm lost and don't know what to do. The last thing I want to do is hurt my wife. And I know if that was my concern I shouldn't have done anything in the first place... I have no defense other than I'm an idiot and I'm not sure what came over me.

you must be honest and tell her,
and if she really loves you she will forgive you and work through this with you,
I know you feel terrible and that you will hurt her by telling her,
but I personally would father my husband be honest and get that off of his chest, rather then hold it in forever,
and honestly you hurt her by cheating not by being honest.
and your not a horrible person,
you made a mistake! and humans do!
pray and ask Jesus for forgiveness and guidance, and to help you tell your wife.
Love Lisa

I guess some of my fears stem from the fact that she is so pure. I am the only man she has ever even kissed; yet I (from my pre-teen years) was addicted to pornography. She had to deal with that even, and although it was just about "in the past completely" now I have to make her deal with this.

She is perfectly innocent in all this; a beautiful girl who doesn't deserve this pain. I know she'll love me and forgive me, but is it right to make her feel so bad?

Yes Chris she doesn't deserve the pain but you've already done the deed that will cause that pain and if nothing else she deserves honesty.

Now I'm gonna get a little blunt with you. She deserves to know that you can't be trusted. Chris all you had to do was the next right thing and you didn't. With the full knowledge that 99% of women who go to hotel rooms to give massages end up giving a lot more, you made the call.

That all being said, by shielding her from what you did, you are not protecting her or your marriage. You are hurting both and not giving her the opportunity to unite with you to build a stronger future.

Tell her tonight and next time you're thinking about porn in any form remember you own words "a beautiful girl who doesn't deserve this pain"