Hi (this is long sorry)
huge fight last night, he does not ever hear what i have to say, i calmly sat him down and said "im not angry , im just dissapointed, i was looking forward to seeing you at lunch and i was dissapointed". Ididn't yell at him, i calmly talked to him. I only see him like once a week since he is working out of town right now and he tells me few days before, oh ill meet you for lunch, we will go to a movie..blah blah blah...ended up he went fishing with a friend, he didnt' make lunch on the monday, and didnt' make it today...so ya i was dissapointed....i come home he has a few beers, definately tipsy..i let that go, sit him down tell him this and he freaks...starts yelling at me this is [censored], im sick of this crap, i try and tell him im not angry with you, im just telling you i wanted to see you today and i was dissapointed...well he flew off the handle, even knocked a chair down and shoved it across the room.. I tried to talk to him he cut me off, did not hear a word i said...just what he wanted to think i was ssaying...i started to cry when he lost it and then he tells me your freakin out, just leave...he then gives me the silent treatment...so my opportunity to actually speak i say my peace, tell him i did not intend to make you feel that way, i wasn't ANGRY about this...does this deserve you yelling at me like this? he then just said this is all [censored] i dont' need this [censored]...An hour later...i try and make up, i give him a hug...he looks at me with such anger in his eyes...i say why are you still so angry...he says to me dont' do this just don't do this im sick of it. we sit down to dinner, i try and make conversation, ask mhim how fishing was...try and be nice, thank him for supper, i ask so do you want to go to a movie? he says no of course, i say well do you want to go out, no not really he says...i ask him later if he wants to do anything...he says...no not really i say then might as well go to bed if your just laying on the couch sleeping anyways...
im sick of it, everytime i see him, he has had drinks...he says its b/c its his day off, then doesn't ever want to do anything, he'll cook us supper and then go fall asleep on the couch...i dont' know how to deal with a person like this...he does not her anything i say to him, everything i say he takes it as me attacking me. He tells me later on when i go up to him a few hours later, well im not going to go out with you b/c you'll just be all pissed off at me if we go out...i know what your going to be like....HOw can he say that, i am trying to reach out an dmake an effort and he frickin says that.
sorry this is so long, im so upset that i need someone to talk to...hes leaving in the morning for almost a week, i can't stand not resolving things, it will keep on me all week until we make up...and i know he will be too mad still in the morning to work it out.
