Not sure why I am typing this other than I feel said.

Discovery sent me through a tail spin. Then trying to restore my relationship seemed to be a battle. One minute my WS seemed to be fighting with me and next against me. My WS will act like nothing is wrong and then I discover something else. I attempted an extremely bad plan B and I think know why it was so bad. To my knowledge it is an EA with some physical attributes. However, it not yet been sexual although he WS said she tried and WS also said she desires. Plan B I think would make it sexual and I wouldn't want her back. Why? not sure. Insecurities or whatever I can nolt say. I took the kids this weekend and WS said it gave herr time to think which helped alot. wow, think heh since she said she went to him.

Oh well, what is done is done. Deserving or not it is just a cross I have to bare. Just feel sorry for the kids.


I just hope I learned enough and managed to put in practice for the next relationship, if I ever am fortunate enough to have one, to maintain a romantic love relationship.

Thank you for the wisdom that I read here.