Help-
He's been out of town for 2 days now- and has only spoken to the kids-except once and that was because I answered the phone- I immediately gave it to the kids though- it breaks my heart that he doesn't even want to talk with me- I just know he's calling her probably-I can't handle this you guys- I just can't-

rsbw

rsbw,

Keep talking to us…there are many faithful spouse that have been in your situation and are having a good marriage. If you read through some of the material on infidelity and those that leave their spouse only about 1% stay with the OW or OM, guess that figure would state you have a good shot at keep your H.

But- it hurts so badly- and of course when I took the boys to school I passed her on the road-she looked at me and then looked away and I never flinched- at least that's something- I just don't understand- everyone constantly tells me what a better person I am- I'm better looking than she is- etc- and most of these are men and they say your H is stupid- it helps the ego a little- but I wish she were gorgeous I think that would be easier to swallow-to be dumped for someone less than you really sucks- and I know of so many qualities that she has that are similar to me- but are worse- and my H complained when I did them- well she's worse than me- He just doesn't see it-
Today- he called and I answered the phone- not much conversation- How are the boys- Here let me get them for you hold on-and then when they were thru talking- I spoke to him about his plans to pick them up tonite to stay at his dad's with him- then said- Have a good trip back- see ya -bye- and I hung up-
I wanted to cry then- he wasn't ugly or anything-he was actually I guess normal-but he didn't even try for any more conversation- and he hasn't asked the boys about me or anything- I just feel so deserted-
During our marriage we have probably only been
seperated for business or whatever maybe 4 times in 12 years
and the longest was a week- but we spoke on the phone constantly- I am so miserable- I feel so unwanted and unloved and betrayed and furious and pitiful and everyone feels sorry for me-
I don't want that it just makes me feel helpless and worthless- and DAMNIT- I AM NONE OF THOSE THINGS -I AM VERY ATTRAACTIVE- AND A GREAT MOM, AND A GREAT WIFE, WHO GAVE THAT MAN ANYTHING HE WANTED- AND HE ****** ON ME- ITS NOT FAIR- I WANT REVENGE-I WANT HIM TO PAY-I WANT THIS TO BITE HIM IN THE [censored] AND SOON- and- I want him home with me-

Rsbw,

If you would like, I have many articles and some of them might help you, at least give you some more reading.

OK-
Ya'll- now I almost think he feels sorry for me
He doesn't see working on our marriage worth it because it won't help and in the end- I'll just get hurt all over again-I guess he's being noble now-
He did hug me 3 times yesterday-once at home and twice at MC in between our appts- he keeps saying he's not my enemy
and he does care about me and love me(as a person,or a dog, or an ice cream cone)
He came over last night before work and actually seemed hesistant as though he had something to say or maybe hug me again- of course I'd like to think it was positve- since he was in a very good mood-but once again I can't even hope anymore- that hurts too bad too-

Depressed and sleepless- R