okay, it hasbeen 6+ weeks since i have written down my last probably not last set of questions foe my ws, but here is some of he answers to some of the questions i asked. i asked why were you so upset when i took your phone to check the messages o it,,,answer,,,, because it is my phone........ where did you meet her after work for drinks....in ??? wha is the big deal he asks....what is the big deal, it is our life together you [censored] is what i wanted to say, but i let him continue with the answers to my ?'s. as he went along and answered them him answered them as if it were no big deal. i have to admit we have been out drinking this evening but it is still as fresh in my mind as if i were 100 percent sober. he acts as if and answers as if it is no big deal....but darnit, it is a huge deal to me!!!!!!! granted i told him i don't want you answeing these when you have been drinking , i want you answering when you are sober. but he does not see the difference. i sit here right now wondering why even bother with this any more? tonight when i was out my h was talkingto some old classmates and a guy kept coming to me to ask to dance. in my unstable mind and to make my h jealous i kept saying yes.
there are times that i want it to work but times like tonight i wonder............... why bother????????????