I am having a very hard time. Found out last week that my husband, who has been living somewhere else for a year, had been cheating on me. We've been talking, bringing up the past. I think we both want to work on things...but we are also both so unsure. And there is so much hurt, so much pain. It's hard to get past. And the images in my head of him with her. I don't know how people get past that. And we have completely different views on how things were with us intimately before all of this. He thinks it was much worse than I do.

I'm sure none of this makes sense. I feel like my heart is beating a million beats at a time and it wants to burst. I am having a hard time breathing. I thought writing my thoughts down could help.

I am not sure if we could ever get past our issues. But I'm willing to try. I wish things were easier.

-Cin

(((hugs)))
So sorry that you are here under these circumstances. There is much to learn here, take it a day at a time. Buy the book Surviving An Affair and start reading. You are not alone.

Is he coming back? How did you find out?

I am re-posting your words because they are word for word what i would have wrote and what i am feeling. exactly. If you would like read my post for a little of my story. I would love to talk to you and maybe we can pm and try to lean on each other. This is the hardest thing that has ever happened.