I previously posted a problem I was having in my marriage. Last night my husband and I had an argument. We both said somethings. After we argued, he put on his clothes as if he were leaving. I asked him if he was leaving the house. As usual, he ignored me. I stood there as he gathered some things and watched him pack. I told him "Bye. Now you know what it feels like to miss out on sleep". Of course that pissed him off. He told me he hated me and he wishes we hadn't met. He was stupid for marrying me. He called me a psychotic ******. He said I was horrible to my mother because I don't visit her. Never mind that I'm on the other side of the world. I told him that his mother who has been locked up for murder all these years for murder is the crazy ******. He hasn't seen her in 17 years. I told him he is a horrible husband, father, and incompetent at his job. He said no one would be with me except him. I told him he cannot play on my self-esteem. Eventually he left the house.
I called my sister and talked to her about what was going on. She says he needs to talk to someone. He says that I pushed his buttons and it was my fault. This is the same man that I told you about in another posting that said I abused him. When I told him that he makes me angry with the things he says which causes me to say certain things to him, he said "No one can make you do anything." What a hypocrite!
Before all of that took place, earlier I went to the bedroom and slammed the door after he gave me ****** about disconnecting the dishwasher. He said I should have done it myself. I explained to him that I tried but I couldn't disconnect one of the hoses. He said he almost electricuted; so he was pissed off at me. Never mind the fact that he has disconnected the dishwasher before and even tried to fix it. Anyway, when I slammed the door. He walked upstairs, push the door open causing it to hit the wall and tells me that if I slam the door again it's gonna be trouble. I attempted to close the door back with the intention of locking it, he braced the door against me. I let go. He's much stronger. He told me not to slam it again. As he walked away, I somehow got it closed although he was pushing, and this time, locked it. Something didn't look right in his eyes.
After he left, we talked. He said that he would get us some help. I've heard this all before. I've decided to separate and eventually get a divorce. I now believe that if he gets angry enough, he may one day hurt or kill me. I guess every man has that in them. I'm not sticking around to find out. It has never gotten to this point. I'm afraid of how far it will go the next time. How do I recover from this??
