I've heard this song a couple of times recently and the chorus sticks out like a sore thumb. Am I getting better or just used to the pain? Dday was back in June. FWH has been very remorseful and quick to help when I need it. I just kind of feel numb. FWH has maintained NC, but ow has tried many times to contact him. Last time was this past Wed. She called his boat phone. He did not answer.

We go about our daily lives and try to spend as much time together as possible. We hug eachother and say nice things to eachother, but I just can't tell if I'm getting better. I'm not really happy, but I'm also not crying or upset as before. What is this? Am I burying all the hurt? And will it come back ten fold in awhile? Is this a stage in recovery or am I just good at blocking it all out? Any insight would be appreciated.

BW(me)
DDay EA 4/05
DDay PA 6/05
In recovery