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On the days where we have not seen eye to eye, and w/h holds in his resentment, it spills over to the nights, with him hugging the right side of the bed, the silence so deep you can cut it with a knife, him laying right on the edge of the bed, us both listening to the sound of each other breathing, and watching the illuminating clocks as they slowly tick away the minutes, waiting for morning or sleep to come. Just once, I would love to lean over and give w/s a huge push over the side of the bed, straight to the ground. I mean, just one little push. I know it would make me feel so much better. What a fantasy. Not that he doesn't deserve it. How many of you out there have fantasies of this or am I the only sick one out there? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />
In the end, I have nothing to lose but everything to gain, by trying to save my marriage.
Me, betrayed wife 46
Former Wandering Husband, 51 E/A 2005
28 years of marriage
DD 26, DS 24
O/W aka, Rat 29, A-D Assisted Living
Discovery 8-20-05 Recovery ongoing.
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Your post made me laugh!
I am sure you are not the only one. I am sure my H felt that way sometimes, and I probably would have deserved it.
Me, the WS, 25
My H, the BS, 25
Married Sept 2003
Served with D papers Aug 2005, but still hoping to make it work
History, despite its wrenching pain, cannot be unlived, but if faced with courage, need not be lived again.
--Maya Angelou
Proud of the woman that I have become, not the events that made me become that woman.
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Boy that sounds familiar! Funny...
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KHB--
WH and I are forced to hug the edges of our King size bed because DD and DS have both chosen that between mom and dad is where they want to sleep! Good news is that the kiddies DO push WH off the bed--all the time!
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KDS I never had that fantasy but your post made me remember the long sleepless nights next to Squid wondering what she was thinking and seeing her give her body to that foul wastrel. Now I watch her sleep and pray over her sometimes. And I find we are holding hands when I wake sometimes too. You won't always want to kick him out of bed but wouldn't it be funny if you did just once ? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />
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KHB--
WH and I are forced to hug the edges of our King size bed because DD and DS have both chosen that between mom and dad is where they want to sleep! Good news is that the kiddies DO push WH off the bed--all the time! Bwahahahahahahahahahahha!!!!!
In the end, I have nothing to lose but everything to gain, by trying to save my marriage.
Me, betrayed wife 46
Former Wandering Husband, 51 E/A 2005
28 years of marriage
DD 26, DS 24
O/W aka, Rat 29, A-D Assisted Living
Discovery 8-20-05 Recovery ongoing.
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Now I watch her sleep and pray over her sometimes. And I find we are holding hands when I wake sometimes too.
Oh Bob, I put my hands on my husband at night and pray for him also. (wiping away the tears) I live for the nights when my husband cuddles me, its times that I feel our souls loving each other when our prideful minds are fast asleep, our souls know our love for each other is true, if our minds would only acknowledge what our souls have known all along.
In the end, I have nothing to lose but everything to gain, by trying to save my marriage.
Me, betrayed wife 46
Former Wandering Husband, 51 E/A 2005
28 years of marriage
DD 26, DS 24
O/W aka, Rat 29, A-D Assisted Living
Discovery 8-20-05 Recovery ongoing.
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