So far he still has no job.
I am scared that when he returns home he will take his anger out on me.
It is not my fault that he wasted his time in CA.
The family was counting on him to succeed.
The plan was bad from the begining, we all got duped.
And now he has to return home still jobless.
I am hopeing he will stay for a little while and maybe get somewhat involved with the family.
I have a job interview on Tuesday and have no child care if I get the job.
I do not mind working during the day and he can be home with my son on his days off from preschool.
He can use that time to continue the job search.
He can help me to find someone to rent out the apartment for extra income.
I found a couple of jobs online that are perfect for him, but they are in Boston, and he doesn't want to live anywhere but California.
I wish he could see that sometimes our plans are not Gods plans.

Saving,

If your husband felt nothing for you or his family he would not be depressed. He is depressed because of the guilt. He probably does not realise it though because of the fog. He is fighting his moral belief system by justifying the A and that is what is causing the depression.

I know I am being a pain in the [censored] today.
In a couple of days it will be the 3rd annivrsary of my FIL death.
That is when my H started acted out.
Anyway, I miss FIL very much, he was the dad I never had and he kept this family together.Both my MIL and BIL and even my H are still haivng a hard time dealing with it.
I wish they would all go to grievance councelling together.
Anyway, I am a hormonal mess, and missing my FIL and I am sorry to sound sound pitiful.
It is times like this when I need my H,

According to my BIL and SIL he has been home every night, no sleepovers anywhere.
This is a good sign, because he was sneaking out of the house late at night, or would just not come back for a few days at a time.
His cell phone has been on ever since he ended contact with OW, another good sign. He used to turn it off for days at a time.
His conversation still cool, but more questions about the kids, etc. We even taked a little about his dad.
I told him tht I wasn't feeling well, and he said that he wishes I would have told him as he felt bad for being no harh with me the day before, told me to rest adn to take care of myself.
Told him that a kid on the school bus took my D6 markers, the ones he had sent her from CA.
She was really upset.
An hour later he sent me a text telling me that he bought her some new ones, and will be mailing them off on Monday.
I was floored!! First selfless act in months. I sent him back a text telling him how kind that was of him.
He also called up D17 himself and wanted to know why she is not helping around the house, etc.
They got into it, but he handled it, I was happy that he is finally showing some interest in the family.
BABY STEPS, BABY STEPS........NO EXPECTATIONS!!