Thanks again for all the help just wanted to give you a small update:
WW ended the affair 9 days ago and has pledge NC. NC has been maintained as far as I can tell since then although my eyes are wide open. We started going to MC this past weekend, it was helpful.
She has been going through bad withdraw since the A ended. She did mention yesterday was a better day and hadn't thought to much about the OM. We are doing a lot of activities together and are following the advice of the marriage counselor the best we can.
She isn't very committed to our M yet, I think she wants to go to MC more to relieve the withdrawal pains rather than to improve the M. I guess this will come in time. I am still doing the plan A and trying to be the best husband I can. It is hard though, I know I deserve a whole bunch better than I getting right now and I hope she can give me every I deserve in the future.
It is funny, I started to realize my own shortcomings as a husband and the skills I needed to improve myself. Once I realized this, I feel I can be an awesome husband to my WW, and if she never can see that then some other woman will really appreciate that she didn't. I don't want to sound arrogant but I totally get it (well as much as a man will ever 'get it') as far as what I need to be as a husband and it really helps me deal confidently with this situation.
All the advice given here as been awesome, and I would especially like to thank the wonderings for their efforts in helping me.
Cheers
