Well everyone it has been a day. Haven't heard from WH in about 4-5 days. Kinda peaceful but I really miss him. I do things to distract myself but at night it gets really hard. I am accepting that the life we had was a lie. When I told him before I married him that this was it and no divorce he lied and agreed with me. It took me 4 years to marry him because of the burning I got from my first marriage. We started out great and I though we had a good marriage. But it wasn't enough for him he had to go out side our marriage and destroyed it with his selfishness. Now I feel like a wart he can't wait to get rid of.
So many promises so many lies I need a fresh start away from here and him. He just doesn't get it. He is so fogged out I don't think he will realise just how badly he has messed up until I pack everything and load the kids and leave the state. He doesn't even care that I was not allowed to mourn his father or grand father. He broke both of thier hearts with this mess. I just hope he is happy with the knowledge that When the papers go through I will be finished here and will move away from him and his garbage. I could say more but I am really blue today