hi all,

just to let you know ultra sound was today. its a boy, my son will be glad he wanted a boy. i wanted a girl, had started getting girls clothes but thats okay, i always thought boys were easier. The ow wanted girl but she took it well, better then i would have. things are going well between us. I have to say God is really taking care of all this. I dont understand how i can be doing so well but it shows with god anything is possible.He has given me peace, he has given me a love for this child.i dont look at it as the ow baby, i look at it as my h baby and i love my h so anyway im just grateful that god is getting me through all this. i thought id break down at the ultra sound but i was totally okay. she gave me the original us pictures,she had copies made for herself.
anyway i just wanted to let you all know how it went.
Im doing my cleansing stream retreat tonight and tomaroo so ill let you all know how it all went on monday.
bye for now, imtswife

Glad you're doing OK imstwife. I was amazed at how well it went for me as well, I had no idea how i'd react once in the middle of it all.

I still struggle with "God's plan", but I did pray for peace through all of this and eventually found it. I think that's about all you could ask for.

I know when our OW was pregnant she wanted a girl and got it. I wanted a boy and was upset at first (thinking our only daughter would feel "less than"). But I think a girl was best for all. My DD loves having a little sister and I think Mom's are the most important person in a little girl's life. I think if it would have been a boy, H would have felt he would have needed to be more involved in OC's life. Either way, I think our sitch worked out as well as possible, considering. Glad you have found some peace and I hope your retreat is cleansing for you. Best wishes! C

Wow, you are woman, hear you roar!

I don't know your whole story--is xow letting you guys adopt OC or something? It's unheard of for an xow to allow the WIFE around, esp. at this early stage, much less cooperate! How far along is she? Aren't you concerned it could be someone else's? It's usually better to wait for DNA. I'm really impressed with this high level of cooperation you and xow are working at---holy cows--but cautious about crosing appropriate boundaries. Do you have a counselor or pastor to run this by?

I do understand about God creating miracles in our hearts and lives, and the lives of others watching us!

I hope you have a great time at your healing spa!
Peace,
J
7y recovery

Wow is all I could say as well. I'm really impressed. I hope that your retreat goes well. Wish you the best.

hello all,

thanks for all your kind words. my retreat was wonderful it was one of the most powerful things i have ever done. i really feel that it was a very needed thing with what is about to happen in my life.id like to say that things continue to be good, but, its amazing how quickly our lives can turn upside down again. I am going to start a new post to let you all know the sad details. It feels like i was built up for the bomb that was about to explode and ill need all your help to get through this.
Im so glad your all here for me to talk to.
look for new post coming soon, ow meets hxw, the nightmare begins. bye for now, imtswife