This week has set me back almost to d-day im terms of coping with the new realities of my family situation, or lack thereof. My DD's birthday was the day after Haloween and all the feelings of loss and abandonment have resurfaced and hit hard even with the AD's in full force. I am having trouble imagining what the big holidays are going to be like. IC is helping (I think) but I can't go every day like I would like to.

Anyone have any suggestions or ideas they have used to make things easier during these times? It's not that I don't get to see my kids, they were there and we enjoyed both evenings together, it just was not the same and the days following sent me into a deep and lasting funk I can't seem to shake. It's been eight months without the EXWW and five since the divorce. Doesn't it get easier any time soon?

Anything and any ideas would be greatly appreciated, I am just tired of feeling this bad about something I have no control over and can do nothing about by myself.

Thanks