I also wanted to let you guys know that my daughter and my husband deleted all e-mails so I only have the times of contact, and I guess hearsay, no actual messages.
I also asked my husband if he was eve worried what would happen if I would look at his txt at 3 am before he did and he said no, it wsn't always "muschy" as he calls it. Well, once would have been enough right? Guess he didn't care.
Well I left him his privacy but not anymore. Now I am supposed to just move on, forget the past. The past involves more than nine month of him and her it involves our marriage, with all the problems, forget them to? Ah, no only his mistake, doesn't quiet work for me.
I know we had problems, but to turn to this woman who went to school with him and I found out was not popular, like I care, Highschool sucks, ask my daughter; and was so exited that she got to hang out with the cool guys from school; being almost 40 and all; makes lots of sence. She flattered him because he was cool in Highschool and she couldn't believe she could hang out with his friends at our get toghethers. What is that?
And her Mister cool is my insecure husband, that thought me and our teenage daughter tried to shut him out. I talked lots but he just heard blahblahblah. Your are always on her side, no. I don't think you need to scream all the time at her.
Well that is somewhat getting better, ecxept the other day, when he just said, you tell her what to do, don't want to get you mad at me again. I flipped, I am not a single parent,if that is how this is going to be leave, they put me in the middle long enough. Told my daughter the same thing.
How come the ones doing the A ask the partner if they are cheating. I thought my husband was going nuts asking me if I was cheating. When I asked, between work, homework, changing diapers being tiered would I have time for that?
I don't have any friends here that I spend hours on the phone or any other time with. Work with mostly teenagers and women.
Believe me I do realize that I didn't flatter him enough or show enough attention. But with kids and work and being tiered doesn't anybody get annoyed besides me, everything I asked for help with was me being a nag. Thanks. Well he did but found someone else to talk to, didn't even have to look they spend almost at least 1 day a week here, invited, great.
I think what also bothers me alot is that she is really somebody that I didn't think would attract him at all. Always saying yes, he can't stand that. Took prozac, she told me that and I told him one day after I told him I was tiered of talking about them, already kind of edgy (me). He would always say, bet she told you.... and I would say, she barley ever talks to me unless the whole family is here. She calls you, your phone, even on my birthday to say happy birthday.
He asked my one night after getting of the phone with her, why is her husband jeaulous,are you. No I said.(I trusted him) Do you think she is atractive? I said I think she is verry nice. I don't judge books by its cover anymore, not since Highschoool, but I was fooled with her, she wasn't pretty on the inside either. She just fooled me long enough. So he told me, trust me there is no attraction whatsforever, looke me in the eyes and all. Now he says trust me it didn't mean anything.
I just liked to talk to her. Well then why did she think he wanted to have a pic of her boobs? And would like to have them? Sorry just rambling. I think this is driving me insane. He is trying, helping out, and I keep thinking, when is this gonna stop. What did he really feel. I am gonna get some books can't afford counseling unless this isn't getting any better for me, that is why I am here. Thanks for listening.
