ok try to make short but this is long story i have been married for 15 yrs and got married when i was 16 great marriage had some trouble but we worked it out. i am a pleaser i want to make everyone happy all the time. i try to take care of everyone. well i became unable to work after fifteen yrs of making desent money for us now i am a burden i have ms. Husbands family is from az and he decieded we needed to move here to make money and they promised him the moon. this has happened before and i know not to trust them but i would follow him anywhere. well we did it and now i am in prison his family does not like me and says it is my fault that they wont help with money they
blame me for everything and now dont want me there. i cant make him and kids choose between me and the family but i cant even try to go talk it out with them i just end up crying and they end up verbly abusing me and he just stands there and does not defend me. i have very bad depression and have already felt worthless and like a burden now this is just horrible husband says i have to just bite my tounge and go over there and act like nothing happened and that they are the ones that have the money that we need for help and it is my fault anyways my marrige is falling aprat kids are suffering dont know what to do please help

oh man, this sounds terrible.

Do you have any family of your own?

yes i have family in the state we moved from my husband understond when we first met and married i would never leave the state cause i was so close to my family. but i felt like i had to because me being sick put us in this awful place. i know i need some major help for my depression but i take meds everyday for it. so depressed i dont even want to wake up in the morning. poor guy i do feel sorry for him he was off today and all i did was fight with him nothing makes me happy, I have no control of my emotions anymore. I think my kids just expect me to be crying all the time it is a normal for them now, Now i am starting to believe all the bad things they say about me maybe i am crazy and paranoid i feel like they are all ploting against me including husband, i need to talk with couscler or something but no insurance here and that is not possible. just such a mess. now i feel like i am forcing him not to love me does that make since? if anyone can help please tell me what to do i am so confused depressed and unhappy thanks

WOW..have you tried calling the Public Health department in your state? They have counselors who will help you for cheap if you have no insurance. Most have crisis lines too. You need to get some professional help from someone.Im surprised your husband hasnt thought of it.