I really hope someone can give me some hope.
My husband and I have been married for 2 years. We have been together a total of 7 years (since I was 16). We have always had our problems. Especially after we had been dating for a few years and the "newness" of the relationship wore off. However, we were always able to find our way out of it together. I used to think that our love could survive anything. Well after the 1st year of marriage I started feeling bored and figity. I didn't know why. I started to think about what was making me feel that way and I came to the conclusion that I haven't felt that "happy" feeling in a while...a long while. Then I thought that maybe I didn't love my husband after all, and maybe I made a mistake. I started ruminating these questions in my head until I wound up depressed, on meds, and in therapy. Which didn't work. Then I started noticing things about my husband that I didn't notice b-4. He is never around, he is always out on a side job or helping someone move, or something. He was never home long enough for us to even have dinner together. I started to think about what it would be like to be on my own. But the thing is I don't want to be on my own, I want to be with him. I hate this feeling. I don't know what to do. He has been emotionally closed off since his mother died (3 years ago). I don't know how to break his shell and I am afraid to try b/c I am afraid that once he opens up I will still feel this way. I am afraid that we are headed towards divorce. I really didn't picture our life going this direction when I married him. This feeling of termoil is awful, I just want to be happy. We started going to therapy together and we started spending more time together but it just doesn't seem like anything is working, I know I need to give it time but everytime we do something together and I don't feel a connection I get dissappointed and I feel like this is worthless. Someone please give me some hope.
