Hi Worthit,

I was wondering about you. I know, it's hard to feel the same way again after infidelity, mental illness or not...and the continued lies make it harder. It's hard to give yourself back to the very one who betrayed you.

I don't know what else to say except... I and all other BS's know and can sympathize with your pain.

One day at a time Worthit.

How is your wife and children doing?

Lady, My W is doing much better except she is REALLY compulsive about everything. She has to do everything now, now, now. She repainted the bathroom while I was out and boy did she ever do a nasty job. She wanted to get it done as quick as possible and used the wrong tools. WHAT A MESS. I have work to do to recover from it. I must address this with her doctors because she got worse in this regard not better.

The kids are cheerful and getting back to routine. For a while I was wondering because they were distant from us (you know kids, they can feel your pain) but they are coming along.

I talked to my W tonight about my inability to express or feel the same right now. She understands and is trying to help me through it. Sooooo confusing!!! I have always been able to keep things together but Wow how confusing this is to go from one thought to another. But anyway you all know how it is I guess. No need to go on…

How are things progressing on your end? Hope all is well.

Worthit, Oh Boy...I hope the bathroom paint is fixable.
When she is like that, I know it's hard to keep up with her.
I told my H today too, that DS is 3 but he knows whats going on, he feels it too. My H seems to do this when the children are 2 or 3. He did it to his EXW and DD when she was 2 also.

My H has had no problem doing things either, job hunting, etc... business as usual.
I have a hard time staying on task at anything...this has really messed me up.

I have surgery at the end of Dec...and I am really afraid I'm gonna die. I have had this fear for the past week. Today I discussed with him where I wanted to be buried. That I want to have my DD as the proxy because I don't want him making any decisions for me. And...that if I should pass I do not want our little boy with him, etc...I would like DS to go with my DD20, she is very mature and responsible for her age and would do a fine job raising him. Of course, he refused that idea.
I could not trust him to raise our DS by himself...I'm afraid he would make his life He!!

I told him since he claims to be Bi-polar, or whatever, he should have never married me. It's one thing to be capable of sexual immorality/drugs at any given point, (they say side effect of BP) and hurt himself, but to come into a family and do this to a wife and children, is a whole other thing. Like I said, he led me to believe he was a well person, he isn't and he betrayed me again with that. If I was to pass away, and he did something like that, my son would go immediately into a foster care situation. I don't trust him, and I never want my son alone with him...ever.

So that is our progress for today... <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />

Lady

Oh my lord LS, I am sorry you have so much on your plate. It must be exhausting having the burden of your current M issues and Family concerns while enduring health issues. My heart and prayers will be with you and hope it will work out for you. Please keep me posted. At the end of this month I know I will have you in mind and hope you are OK.

I agree with you wanting to ensure your family’s safety and feel you have made the right decisions within this regard. But I am saddened to hear that you feel you must make such preparations. I really hope all is well. Stick to you guns regardless if he agrees or not. He has a long road ahead of him yet.

As for the bathroom I will have to get some really good tools to rid of the drip marks and unevenly rolled paint. When she was in the hospital, I remodeled the dining room, hallways and entry with trim 1/3 high from the floor and place frames every 15 inches at the bottom. The colors are an elegant mixture of dark and light brown also using a sponge effect with both colors within each frame. All this gave such a comfortable and soothing look. So basically, she thought she could use these colors in the bathroom and do something really nice. But now she realizes she was too quick and did a poor job of it using colors that were not appropriate in a bathroom setting. Again, what a mess as she managed to drip paint all over the floor, toilet, vanity, tub, tile, etc…What was she thinking and how she couldn’t notice what she was doing I cannot understand. I’m not mad at her or anything I just can’t understand what she is going through.

Please keep me posted. I will be praying for you.

WorthIt